I changed or?

i knew since when i started to feel there is something wrong between us
i just can't find back the feeling like we used to be
i miss the old time when we were together laughing and non-stop talking
i think i changed
i think you changed too

i knew now you are great, greater than me in everything
Our standard getting different?
I felt bad with your words sometime
even when some small words will touch my feeling
i not dare to sit down and talk to you
because i think will end up getting worst
and i have that thinking because i tried to talk to you
and that is the time our relationship getting worst i think

i miss it when we talked without hesitate
i miss it when we laughing together
i miss it when we talk some mean words to each other
i miss everything between us

But time so cruel
it faded our relationship
and because we live in different circle
we become different
i can't find anymore common point between us
i can't find a topic to talk anymore between us
i even felt awkward when i see you sometime

i hate the feeling that we aren't same anymore

Hoping that things will back to before again
like we used to be

Too peaceful?

coming back to home

everything seems so peaceful

i am not that kind of person that like really peaceful feeling

i like noise i like to be with a lot of ppl

of maybe two people when just me and him :P

this time is weird,

i felt weird that i am already at home

i felt weird that very soon i am leaving Malaysia

and start an adventure in a brand new place that i never been

not even been to some countries near there :P

i should miss my family a lot

but it turn out to be weird

the feeling to be home is just not the feeling like before?

i had changed a little i guess

but now getting used to it and the feeling coming back

haha

still enjoy to be with my mom

shopping, making some weird dishes that i learnt from magazines

online-ing and etc...

nothing much to do at home actually

just relaxing all the time and i don't really feel like going anywhere

my heart and my mind just missing *** now

>.<>

finally

finally back to my home sweet home yesterday

have a very nice trip before that :)

thanks everything

after all the pressure, i had nothing much to say now

hahahaha

oh..if have a lot a lot of things to express

Felt so damn bad lately

but exam time now

so cannot write too much.

for now i only pray for the plan still same. :(

hope there is no changes.

Don't ever think that someone is the best!

there is no the best in the world,

there is always another the best even when you think that you are the best.

Stop showing off in front of me.

Why already last week for the semester still so many assignments?

wow..i thought i am so free

but actually i am damn busy

i have free time to watch drama, to play game, to write blog, to sleep

but......

in life there is always but (this is what dr. harjit always like to say :P)

i don't have time for revisions and assignments

Still have 3 assignments to go

How the fuck i should complete my macromedia director?

No one using director nowadays

And everyone is using flash

why we should stepping backward and do the things that people don't do now?

Life is so so so miserable sometime

but....

as i said there is always a but

full of surprise

Very very moody suddenly

Yesterday

i became so so so moody suddenly :(

felt like the world only left me alone

no confident at all

don't even dare to look at people face to face

Always peeping someone at behind

Really no confident at all

Why i am not the pretty one?

Why i am not the smart one?

There are just too many why in my mind

I am just a fatty and dumpy

That makes people feel irritate

Nobody will like me

Today, i still feel the same

I hate this feeling :(

No tittle

Everything seems so unreal

Everyone seems so fake

Life is too short to care about too much

Quality relationship

" what is quality relationship?" i asked.

"quality relationship is relationship that last long." he said

" is it the relationship that lead to marriage?" i asked

"no, i don't want to get married. i just want to put a ring on her finger?" he said

"why?" i asked

"i think that a ring is enough. marriage is just a responsibility. i just want to live together with her." he said

"yea, it is enough and nice that can live together happily." i said

Go back again

Sometimes is tiring to come here and there

i always feel excited to come back

always depressed when going back

Will i have anxiety with too much up and down feeling?

lol..

P.S : Pressure killing me too :(

i am evil

i always have bad thought in my mind

hahahahhahaha..

i am an evil devil

Happy to be that way.

Getting Crazy!!!

i am always an emo girl

i can be very happy in front of you
but i am very moody in the deep deep heart
i can always smile i front of you
but i am crying in the rain
i can always be confident in front of you
but i have low self-esteem in me

i am not a person that everyone likes
i lose in so much of things
i even lose to myself but no one knows

if you come to me and say wanna find a good friend
you come to the wrong place
i am never a good friend


who knows what i am thinking now?

Time

i hope the time can pass faster till the day i graduate

but i need more time to do my things

in deep shit now

NOT ENOUGH TIME !!

Is just on my face

everything is just on the surface

in deep deep down my heart

there are a lot of sadness and dissatisfaction and all kind of

unpleasant feelings inside...

物以群分，人以类聚

很对很对很对的一句妙言

尤其最近发身在我身上的事

更显得这句谚语超妙的！

一句简单的言语，却包含了许许多多的含义。

妙！

很想去到一个没人认识我的地方

我真的很想去到一个没人认识我的地方

我很想离开，离开这给我带来许许多多烦恼的地方。

我开始觉得害怕，因为有人妥协了

显得我好像是整天给人带来麻烦的人

名都臭透了！

我的后果会如何呢？

我有事时又会怎么样呢？

许许多多的烦恼，压得我透不过气

我讨厌现在的生活。

如果我睡了，明天起不来了，那该多好啊！

no boundaries

when i feel i lost my way

and my chances were already gone

i started believing that i could be wrong

but you gave me one good reason

to fight and never walk away

So here i am still holding on

Set me free

Stop pressuring me

Stop coming to me

Please set me free

A very shit morning but a very good day yesterday (16/7/09)

a very shit meeting in the morning yesrterday felt damn bad about it
if you dont believe me, critic my idea, pls don't ask for my idea.
EVERYTHING i do will be DUMB LAME JOKES for u
you are so so so smart, u should get everything done by yourself!!!! fucker!!

and u, penjaga counter!! everyone also know that duty at the counter don't have money
SO I DONT NEED U TO TELL
i do things is not because of money, u think i am like u? BITCH!!
the head shoe is very delicious, u should LICK it!!
i know you enjoy LICKING it!
U did very great job, good luck in your LICKING!!

finally, afternoon, great!! met new frens
so so so cute friend..ah ha!! looks confident, independent and cute.
Pretty somemore!
Morgan and Katja, really nice to meet you guys!

my night, great!! Met a great taxi driver!!
when there is something bad happened at first, there will be something good come ahead
Fucker and Bitch, u did spoiled my mood in the morning, but yea..thanks for the thing happened at afternoon and night!! my day was great!!

Don't give up.

heng ah!!

Why everytime also like that?

grrrrrrrr.....

i thought there should be all the friendly person there

but i guess i was totally wrong

maybe i will stop right after this project

don't you guys think that you all should be more friendly?

一颗没人发觉的小豆

Sunday

A Lovely Sunday morning

Sun is hiding

Cloudy day

Cold wind blew

People holiday-ing

What a lovely Sunday...

Debate ? ?

Just back from the first debate meeting for this semester

found out that i got very very rusty

gave a very very bad speech without any point

What's the purpose of all those debate competition actually?

in the end of every debate, what is the solution for the brought up problems?

seems like nothing solve right?

so why should they have debate?

Debate for nothing is kinda funny

It is just to fulfill the interest of human in arguing

Or in a better way to say is argue about a big topic following some rules

Funny Funny Funny

Switzerland ! here i come!

my second year classes started this week

things getting heavy but what to do

have to accept it

went to see counsellor yesterday cos felt depressed

after speak out everything

feeling much more better

just got to know i got full scholarship for the student exchange that i had applied

feeling so surpirse about it

and at the same time feeling kinda depressed too

maybe i am thinking too much

after meeting the counsellor and i spoke out everything that makes me feel uncomfortable

today i guess i am feeling better and feeling very good about the student exchange

today i surf websites about Switzerland

it is a really wonderful country

i guess IF I ABLE to go

it will be a very good experience for me :)

BACK TO USM (4/7/09)

going back to usm tomorrow
feeling sad about it
at the same time getting better and reaslized i have to continue to overcome everything that come to me
feeling kinda weird...

人言可畏

做了许多不愿意的事，因为人言可畏

每天戴着面具做人，因为人言可畏

无论多不想做都一定要强迫自己去做，因为人言可畏

表面做得很好很乖，因为人言可畏

假装，因为人言可畏

打破脸皮充胖子，因为人言可畏

忽略了自己的感受，因为人言可畏

真的很想躲起来做自己爱做的事，不必向任何人交代人和我做的事！！

或许我太过介意别人对我的看法了吧！

我即将成为大二生

放了两个月的悠长假期，又是时候回到那“美好”的大学去

一失足成千古恨，到现在我还是有点后悔当初选了个蛮奇怪的科系

从大一开始每当大家问我读什么科时，我说：“我读翻译系。”

大家都会觉得很好奇。到底是读什么的呢？

大家都以为我主修的是某某外语。我选这一科时，我也以为自己可以学很多的语言。

小学到中学，比起科学与数学，我的语文课都比较强，所以我会选择这一科。

其实，到今天为止，我觉得我念的东西总是怪怪的。有语言，但并非我想象中那样。

我的主修更是好笑。有时我也不知道我念这一科是为何。

上了大学我才发现语言基础的重要性。

当初以为自己的语言比其他科强，但到了大学我才发现我的语言其实也不强。

而且好选不选，偏偏选了个离家里还蛮远的大学。

每当要回去，心情总是特别的沉重，心酸酸的，根本都不想回去。

回想起来，都怪自己笨，做了个错误的选择。

我现在已没回头的机会，只好硬着头皮走下去，毕竟这是自己的选择。

三年其实很快过，我已经读了一年，还有两年，其实都是转眼就过的时光。

许多人都希望读大学，我却幸运的进了大学，是否应该开心地度过呢？

虽然已经大二，但我那太过不独立的性格让我老妈操心了。

她拿了一份报纸让我看。题目是“写给新鲜人的信”。

我把那四封信都读完了。我一样也没做到。

其实我也不想平平凡凡，浪浪费费德度过这三年。

但我不知道可以做些什么来充实自己。

我对大学的团体觉得无聊。

他们的管理方式让我觉得很不舒服。

已经大二了，或许我应该让我的日子过得充实些，找些目标让自己努力地达成。

找些精神寄托，让自己活得更开心应该是最重要吧！

该从梦中醒来了，走走看看，发掘身旁的事物，开始美好人生的旅程吧！

MJ's death

MJ gone!!

everybody was shock with his sudden death.

he is a legendary dancer.

i am not really his fans, but i felt a little sad also about his death.

my mom likes him, that's why i know him.

i read storis about him this morning, and the stories behind the great him are really touching my heart

i should be feeling lucky that i had great childhood

i do think that his father is really cruel, take away the time that his children should be playing in playground, eating ice-cream and running on the field .......

but, in the other point of view, if his father doesn't treat him or the rest of the children "cruely",

will he become the Michael Jackson that we knew today?

the moonwalker, the amazing lean in smooth criminal, all the iconic dance........

happy birthday to u

wanna make some special thing for you, but failed at last

its kinda disappointed..

maybe i should learn better before your birthday

i promise i must make it for you when i really success in making it

wanna make a nice one for u

ONE MORE TIME

Happy 21st birthday to you!

>.<

less than one month to go back to school

not in good mood :(

should i proud to be one of the student in Apex university?

A big "joke" happened in the university i am studying currently

"system error" ? 

true or not?

hahaha

should i be proud about apex? 

Maybe i should, cause i am one of the student inside. 

=.="

11 things

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it! 

Rule 2 : The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both. 

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. 

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity. 

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them. 

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room. 

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life. 

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time.. 

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs. 

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one. 

very very moody

very very very very moody today

=.= 31/5/09 is not my day

i wish time could freeze at 30/5/09 

Genting trip (28/5/09)

i went to Genting yesterday. unexpected cold. 

colder than the last time i went there. 

is kinda weird to see this fenomena because it is damn hot on the ground(KL).

just went there to walk around and enjoy they freezy cold wind. 

there is a free shuttle now from highland hotel to a temple named Tsin Swee Temple. 

We went there for a vegetarian meal.  

After that we look around the temple, it has been changed a lot. 

A very special place i would like to bring up here is the explanation in about life in HELL. 

About life after death and what punishment for human which did wrong things. 

as i expected

Actually the it is what i had expected

i should not be too sad about something that i had expected earlier 

this is a lesson for me 

i should not be sad because i still learn something in the end

+tive is what i need 

Better

Feeling better when there is someone out there supporting me.

i am not totally being ignored.

What should i do when i felt down? 

this world is so cruel

scary, cruel, full of evil world,

hope i am not a human,

if i have the chance to choose, 

i don't hope to become human again. 

the human world is too complicated for me. 

or maybe i am too naive..

Did i tell a lie?

tiring, fear..

i don't know should i tell the truth 

A ROOM IN MY HEART (Faith Hill)

My heart was once just like a home 
With many rooms and open doors 
And I always let love in 
It would change the rooms around and then 
Leave them empty 

'Til one by one I locked each door 
And soon forgot what love was for 
But I never gave up hopin' 
So I left just one door open 
In case you found me 

So there's a room in my heart for you 
If your trust has been stolen too 
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor 
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before 
There's a room in my heart for you 

We'll paint the walls from blue to white 
And set the mood by candlelight 
Together we'll keep out the cold 
And I'll still be there when we're old 
If you'll let me 

So there's a room in my heart for you 
If your trust has been stolen too 
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor 
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before 
There's a room in my heart for you

finally home sweet home

i reached home yesterday at around 8 something
i should be reached home much much early
aiks..taking plane is not a very good idea
the plane from 4.05pm delay until 5.30pm
although reaching kl is faster but aiks..need to wait wait wait at airport..
my heart just wanna go back faster but still have to wait
the feelings irritated me
but was too too happy and excited when i saw my mom
she touch my face while she saw me
i think she also too long didnt see me
my mom and dad was so happy too
haha..first time saw them so happy
studying in uni is not really a wonderful thing
i have to stay far from home but....
i love my home very much
i miss home dishes so so so much
i never appreciate what my mom cooked before
but now i hope to eat it everyday
and i miss american idol as well
miss to watch it every week
i miss everything at home
but the relaxation will only last for two months
i wish i no need to go back anymore
............finding job now.......

THE SECRET

i don't believe it when i heard people talking about it
i thought it was nothing so miracle about it
but i was wrong after i read the book "The Secret"
omg...it really come true
i did some small experiments on it
it really came true

so at last is really between me and the universe
nothing much to worry about
just think for what i want and work for it

the Genie said "Your wish is my command"
so do the universe
is that true?
better to believe it than not
because the world are full of miracles

wahahahhahha!!! Nice book!!
wanna get the copy of DVD
wanna start do a vision board for myself
my visionssss here i come
wish me success :P
haha...

we have our own life now

we have our own life now
no matter how close we are
we just cant get as close as before anymore

cos we have our own circle now
and we have grown up
i really miss the day we used to be

no use to look back
things will not get back the same as they are

我累了

我真的很累很累
生活中不如意事时常都有
但是我真的累了
朋友之间的纷争
多不胜数
你以为很好的朋友其实并不是你想象中那样

假面具实在太多了
甚至我也戴着面具生活
大学生活并不是想象中那么的美好
繁重的课业
各方面的压力
压得我喘不过气来

其实有时是否我过于介意人家的眼光呢？
我担心别人如何看我
我介意别人对我有不好的印象
我也喜欢在别人背后说一些不好听的话，
我知道我也难免不会被人在背后说我的坏话，
但是我没想到平时可以开开心心在一起的人原来一切都是表面而已，
或许现在我所看到的都只是表面而已吧！

我真的觉得很累，
对于某些人我觉得更累，
我讨厌三人行，
两个人的感觉比较自由自在，
三人行的感觉很讨厌，
因为总有一人会被忽略
而从以前到现在我大概都是那个人吧！

心情真的超级差，考试考不好，
功课赶来赶去，
我知道每个人可能都一样，
所以我才说没有倾诉的对象。
找不到倾诉的人
是最可悲的

我想回到过去，回到那个熟悉的自己，
回到那个原来的自己。
我累了！！

LOL

Things should not be like that !
Appreciation is a very important lesson in life
no matter in what aspect

before is vase and now is fresh prepared dishes

definition of vase : - only for display

definition of fresh prepared dishes :-
step to prepared :
1. observing for suitable "dish"
2. buy it with barter sistem :- your saliva, my "attention"
3. wait for the big day
4. time up, dishes can be served.

after served:- someone critic and said it cannot be eat and just left it rudely
- someone waiting for the chef to discuss the factor of the undelicious dishes

funny story after all.......
someone that did not get the grapes said the grapes are sour
dramatic..
"dishes" says :- wait for the "fresh" start

AGM

i will be attending an AGM tonight
why every club have to have AGM?
actually i don't really believe in AGM results
it just basically let us get used to politics before we step into the society
actually is it in every AGM the board members are already fixed? ..i am wondering..
for certain clubs i guess it is
then actually AGM is just a dramatic scene to show everyone
"Yes, we have our new board members by VOTING."
nice to watch and nice to hear
but the truth, behind knows...
haha..rushing now to have dinner with my friend
will drop by soon

Sensitive > me

am i too sensitive sometimes?
i am thinking of how to change myself lately
i think i still have a lot to change
how can i be less dependent to others?
sometime too dependent is kinda irritating
and will become burden sometime
i don't want to become burden to anyone
i know you might not think that i am a burden
but when you get angry with me sometimes
i feel like i am a burden to you
there are times i think nonsense
i know i will be very disappointed and sad if you went off my life
i don't know how can i satisfied you
i get emotional easily sometimes
i hope you can understand my feelings well
at the same time i will try to understand you too
you always say i cannot understand certain thing
but actually i understand just i used to become the person that always have "priority" at home
i wish to become a priority for you too
you said i am but i felt that i am not
am i too sensitive?
i think i am
but this is who i am
how can i change to become a less sensitive people
i just wish things can be different sometimes
tones of work waiting for me now
i got headache again everyday
do you know that?
you always say you care for me, i felt it sometime
i felt it not sometime
..................................................Sensitve > ME..............................................

something in my life

as my friend said i am very "good" in critisizing others
is not good to critisize right?
i think so not good
but sometime i just come out some cristizing words
haha..thats me :P

but one thing i now
when i am critisizing someone here
and there will be someone critisize me too
lately i found that she is not as bad as i think
maybe she just lack of some communication skill
she act fierce maybe she don't know how to communicate with students
or maybe in the bottom of her heart she want to hide something
maybe that is one kind of protection towards herself
she just express herself in a "unkind" way
that is my impression towards her now

i saw in my friend's profile
this is written in his profile
"in Love, there is someone who offer the cheek and someone who kisses the cheek"
yes, i felt that is very true
i won't offer my cheek or kiss someone cheek if i don't love that person
i like this phrase

next week i going to hand in 3 assignments
i dont 1 of it
still working hard on the other two
just "stealing" some time to write in an entry

sem end exam coming soon
two weeks later will be study week
after that i will have my exam
why the exam time for my co-course so weird this time?
the exam till 29th, i am going back on 30th
aiks..i should get a 29th one
cos everybody is going back on 29th :(
but no choice now, already booked the air ticket
first time fly from penang to kl
i think will feel very good because i save at least 3 hours and 15 minutes
hahahahahahha....

submitted the form to become buddy lately
still waiting for the interview
but i heard that i need to come back earlier for the buddy stuff
aiks..already bought air ticket
hope i can excluded from this time activity if i success in the interview

nice trip

i had a nice trip last weekend
since there are 3 days continuous holidays because of prophets mohammad birthday
i went to langkawi with my friend

this trip is quite different than before
i went to places that are different than which i went before
first day, i reached the jetty at about 7.45am
the ferry was 8.15am
so after got the ticket i went to the jetty and get the ferry
i reached there at about 11.00am
it was a very long journey in the ferry
felt so tired
after reached the hotel
got some rest then went out to underwater world which is just 15 minutes walk from the hotel
this is the schedule for first day

second day, i got car rental
then drove to gunung machincang
on the way, stopped by harbour park and have lunch
around half an hour
reached gunung machincang
the cable car is really quite expensive
aiks..i forgot to bring my mykad
so have to pay rm30 for the ticket
but when reached up the mountain
wow..feel like in genting
nice view up there
i never been so cool in langkawi
haha..
after that, went to the seven wells
long long walked :(
hot..sweat...
reached the waterfall but nothing there
only the same view as i seen on gunung machincang
around 6pm, went back to hotel to bath
then drove again to town and shopping
around 9.45pm drove back to shop and return the car
stupid car rental store said wanna fined rm20 because we late for 20 minutes
we argued for a while
finally i won
hahaaha....
raining, but have to walked back to hotel
luckily is not too far
at the entrence of the road to hotel
there is a restaurant
have dinner there
nice food..better than what i ate for the first day
getting tired
reached hotel
sleep....
the end of second day

third day...
in the morning, went to the sea and swim
the sun was really hot
after than went to the mall near underwater wolrd again to buy some chocolate
then called taxi to fetch to jetty point again
ate lunch there, then online at starbucks and wait for the ferry
not happy because going to leave
:( time up, went to ferry
sleep for a while
sunset..
very nice one
went to the dashboard of the ferry and enjoyed the beautiful of sunset
its only 4 minutes
the sunset makes me feel
beautiful and happy time gone in a blink of eyes
and after all the nice thing
we have to come to the cruel reality again

is a sad sad night for me

wish i could have chance again soon

have lots of nice pic..bt don't know why couldn't upload

thank you

thank you Wen Ding for today cos accompany me walk here and there just to get my ferry ticket, thank you very much

there is nothing fair in this world, is it true?

after i had give up on something, will i get back something as replacement?

Life is too short to allow me to think too much

Life is too short to have too much miserable things

Life is too short to let me hate someone

but, there are still too much to think of, too many miserable things happened and someone to hate

Is everything happening now is a dream?

will i wake up someday and lost everything?

i thought i will be better today, but i still feeling very "bu gan xin" because of the debate club stuff

but, who knows my leaving will be a good thing for me

i know even if i stay there i will not have chance

no chance to be who i want to be

am i convincing myself that leaving is correct?

At the end of the day, is actually just between you and me.

So, should i care?

this is my now

what to do with life?
i don't really understand what mean by life actually.
am i sounding too pessimistic?
when i have to make a decision, why do i need to think?
Can i just decide without thinking?
Do i need a reason to hate someone?
Do i need a reason to leave something?
Can i have the time to stop a while for me?
Is really hard when you have to make a decision when you don't really feel like you want to do
i felt really hard
i had think thousand times actually
What makes me stay in the club?
i still can cheat myself with some minor reasons before this
but after yesterday, i can't think of a reason why i should stay in the club
but i can think reasonssssss why i should leave the club
so? have i made a right decision?
what will happened next?
i really wanted to get involve in the activities
but who cares about what i felt?
i am invisible today
the feeling is really bad
because of that i had really made my decision to leave
but why i felt quite bad after i wrote the letter to the president?
i thought myself had already made the decision
i already sent the letter
i have no turning back
i think i should look forward now to find my new road
i think there are always opportunities in life

i always don't like this person but i can't tell the reason
finally i got the reasons two days ago
should i be happy? or should i congratz myself for having one more enemy in this world?
or should i just close one eye and keep on diguising?
OMG..i hate to be fake
why i can't always be myself?
why should i care about how people think of me?

how can i satisfy her?
this is the biggest problem i have now
too many things to think of
this is my now.......

blogss

wow...long time did not log in to blogspot and read others blog
reading now
really got to know a lot of things
hm...this is the benefit of blog
can 8 ppl stuffs..hahahahha

i have a bad day

today is the first time i been scold by a lecturer so so badly
feel very very unhappy now
i heard everyone said she is a biased teacher
after i heard that i already getting be careful when she is teaching
i don't really believe in the beginning but day by day
i think i HAVE TO believe it
she just scold scold scold scold in every lesson
scold more than teach
always make students feel bad
i don't know how others think but she really make me feel bad
and i refuse to attend her class
i attend because i have no choice
we are just like primary student that just started the second level of a language
why she want to scold scold scold instead of tried to teach us and correct our mistake?
now i know which one is better
is it a mistake i had taken japanese as minor?
i don't really like it at the beginning, but since Rika sensei is very good, i feel like the subject is still ok for me
but....aiks...second half of this semester is just like shit
i really scared i will get very bad grade this time
two weeks later will have an interview with the "pronounciation queen"
i already done not that good in the last interview
i scare this time i will be worst because she makes me think that
she hates me so much
she cant even pronounce the "h" well
but she still crictic on our pronounciation
omg....how long i still have to stand with this fucker?
she really makes me want to scold her with bad word
is it she is in pre-menopause or what?
she argue with her husband everyday?
or is she married?
almost the end of last semester
i feel better with japanese
but now.......
it's complicated
pls pray for my sem end exam
i hope i wont get bad grade for japanese
yeah..one more thing..
i hope "someone" (i guess ppl who are reading this will know who is that) can tell me through what mistake i had made during the discussion
i know is my responsible for my own mistake
you can blame me after the presentation
but we are learning together right?
so i hope you can tell me my mistake during the discussion but not blaming me after the presentation
if you mind that because my mistake i had made the group get scolded, then i apologize.

i wish to see my future suddenly..i wish so much to see it

i wish so so much to see my future now
i scare i am doing the wrong things now
i don't know is it stupid to do this
chinese new year passed very fast
i am going back to ipoh tomorrow
tiring journey will start soon
i am used to the days without you
but i just feel very sad suddenly cos i will be far from you again
still in the same pieces of land but it is far
why life have to be like this?
i am tired of studying and passing day by day like this
can i have something that i wish to hold it in my hand forever?
i don't want to change anything
i just want to maintain what it was before
changing makes me feel uncomfort
it seems like these days i had back to someone i used to be
i found back who i really is
i was lost for sometimes
i lost my identity for quite a long time
now i am back
thanks for bringing me back
i hope i can freeze the happiest time i ever had

omg...so many assignments

omg..so so many assignments suddenly..
hm hm....have to rush rush rush
not feeling very well lately somemore
just need to plus oil plus oil
today need to find transposition, modulation and synonymy examples from my dear pride and prejudice book
ahh...need to present it on wednesday..
pray pray pray...
hope i got to find it later when i go back to hostel
5pm to 7pm still have to attend a class..
so so regret to join the club...
Community service
but never go out and serve the community
and they planned to cheat sponsor somemore
they want some companies to sponsor them for annual dinner
and where to find such stupid company to give them free dinner?
so they planned to think of something related to 'charity' like invite some orphan or old folks to join the dinner
haiz...is this called community service?

debate BBQ

went to a BBQ tonight
it was the best BBQ i ever had
haha...previously i went twice to my friend's house for BBQ, this is the best among those
the BBQ i had before is quite messy
we BBQ at N-park
the place is really nice
the wind is nice
haha..
the pools is nice
all kind of pools there
we played cards game on the pool side till 12 something
after that the guard asked us to leave because we are not allowed to be there after 12am
then, sai mon fetched us to gurney's mcd
lol..we misunderstood the place
the seniors wanted to go a place called Greenlane, Mcd
hm...we been lost for almost half an hour i guess
finally we reached, is around 1.30am already
we continue the card game
the losers got some very funny and embarrassing punishment
around 2.30am, finally i reached my hostel
hm..but i had fun and enjoy although i was tired
is 3.20am now..and i guess i will sleep soon...
Zzzzzz....tired

should i tell?

i have something in my heart for quite some time already
should i tell it out?
i am struggling that whether i should tell it out
i scared it will leave a scar
sometimes we can't see anything from surface
but..actually..inside might be bleeding or.....
disguising is not a good feeling
but still have to disguise
is this what called life?

pictures for the last few posts

the first few pictures took from kek lok si. my friends and i went to kek lok si during christmas. the 'silver people' i took it on the foot of the hill. he is doing some show there.

After that few pictures from t-bowl which is located at queensbay mall. we went there on chrsitmas eve. is quite special place and the food is quite nice.

The lower pictures took from fun fair during pesta penang. the pesta held at sg. nibong. i had fun because long long time did not go to fun fair.

new year eve

great, special new year eve i had this year
my friends and i went to tanjung bungah for new year eve celebration this year
is not really a celebration
just because the day after is new year
so we used 'this opportunity' to have fun
haha
i booked a motel in tanjung bungah
hm..amazing...really just beside the sea.....
nice nice nice
that night we planned to go batu ferringghi to see the night view there
but we waited for quite long already still cannot find any bus
so just back to our motel
before that we ate in the hawker stall in front of our motel first
then time up....!!!!! HAppy new year!!!!
firework can heard everywhere
then we rush to see firework
after that we went to seaside to walk
nice feeling
there are quite a number of people at the beach
some people playing firework at the beach
very nice
and very close
we can see the firework
after that
we went back to the motel
and bathe
and after that play truth or dare
i don't really like this game honestly
maybe because i don't like to be honest
haha...
we did not sleep for whole night
till morning sleep for a while
my firend and i went to beach wanna see sun rise in the morning
kinda stupid
because our direction is we can only see sun set
the seaside is feezing cool in the morning
but there are still some people running at the beach
then we went back to room
and continue to sleep
around 12pm
we go to seaside again to walk for a while
after that
we all felt hungry
and planned to eat at near the motel
unfortunately
there is nothing to eat in the morning
then we went back to the motel again
and packed
and prepared to check out
hm hm....
our next destination
GURNEY Plaza
taken our breakfast + lunch at gruney plaza
then we watch movie
we watched 'YES MAN'
funny movie
haha...laugh laugh laugh
then around 8 something i reached my hostel
come back to my hostel again
don't know why suddenly felt very down
erm...i think i should know the reason but i am trying to fun away from the reason
after a while i slept

everything was very very nice
i had a very nice new year eve
with all my crazy friends
haha..thanks all
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
wish good things will come one by one :)