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i am studying in university science malaysia penang campus now. trying to enjoy my university life. hoping everything will get better soon.

Saturday, February 28, 2009

thank you

thank you Wen Ding for today cos accompany me walk here and there just to get my ferry ticket, thank you very much

there is nothing fair in this world, is it true?

after i had give up on something, will i get back something as replacement?

Life is too short to allow me to think too much

Life is too short to have too much miserable things

Life is too short to let me hate someone

but, there are still too much to think of, too many miserable things happened and someone to hate

Is everything happening now is a dream?

will i wake up someday and lost everything?

i thought i will be better today, but i still feeling very "bu gan xin" because of the debate club stuff

but, who knows my leaving will be a good thing for me

i know even if i stay there i will not have chance

no chance to be who i want to be

am i convincing myself that leaving is correct?

At the end of the day, is actually just between you and me.

So, should i care?

Friday, February 27, 2009

this is my now

what to do with life?
i don't really understand what mean by life actually.
am i sounding too pessimistic?
when i have to make a decision, why do i need to think?
Can i just decide without thinking?
Do i need a reason to hate someone?
Do i need a reason to leave something?
Can i have the time to stop a while for me?
Is really hard when you have to make a decision when you don't really feel like you want to do
i felt really hard
i had think thousand times actually
What makes me stay in the club?
i still can cheat myself with some minor reasons before this
but after yesterday, i can't think of a reason why i should stay in the club
but i can think reasonssssss why i should leave the club
so? have i made a right decision?
what will happened next?
i really wanted to get involve in the activities
but who cares about what i felt?
i am invisible today
the feeling is really bad
because of that i had really made my decision to leave
but why i felt quite bad after i wrote the letter to the president?
i thought myself had already made the decision
i already sent the letter
i have no turning back
i think i should look forward now to find my new road
i think there are always opportunities in life

i always don't like this person but i can't tell the reason
finally i got the reasons two days ago
should i be happy? or should i congratz myself for having one more enemy in this world?
or should i just close one eye and keep on diguising?
OMG..i hate to be fake
why i can't always be myself?
why should i care about how people think of me?

how can i satisfy her?
this is the biggest problem i have now
too many things to think of
this is my now.......

Thursday, February 26, 2009


wow...long time did not log in to blogspot and read others blog
reading now
really got to know a lot of things
hm...this is the benefit of blog
can 8 ppl stuffs..hahahahha

i have a bad day

today is the first time i been scold by a lecturer so so badly
feel very very unhappy now
i heard everyone said she is a biased teacher
after i heard that i already getting be careful when she is teaching
i don't really believe in the beginning but day by day
i think i HAVE TO believe it
she just scold scold scold scold in every lesson
scold more than teach
always make students feel bad
i don't know how others think but she really make me feel bad
and i refuse to attend her class
i attend because i have no choice
we are just like primary student that just started the second level of a language
why she want to scold scold scold instead of tried to teach us and correct our mistake?
now i know which one is better
is it a mistake i had taken japanese as minor?
i don't really like it at the beginning, but since Rika sensei is very good, i feel like the subject is still ok for me
but....aiks...second half of this semester is just like shit
i really scared i will get very bad grade this time
two weeks later will have an interview with the "pronounciation queen"
i already done not that good in the last interview
i scare this time i will be worst because she makes me think that
she hates me so much
she cant even pronounce the "h" well
but she still crictic on our pronounciation
omg....how long i still have to stand with this fucker?
she really makes me want to scold her with bad word
is it she is in pre-menopause or what?
she argue with her husband everyday?
or is she married?
almost the end of last semester
i feel better with japanese
but now.......
it's complicated
pls pray for my sem end exam
i hope i wont get bad grade for japanese
yeah..one more thing..
i hope "someone" (i guess ppl who are reading this will know who is that) can tell me through what mistake i had made during the discussion
i know is my responsible for my own mistake
you can blame me after the presentation
but we are learning together right?
so i hope you can tell me my mistake during the discussion but not blaming me after the presentation
if you mind that because my mistake i had made the group get scolded, then i apologize.