the last day of 2008

today is the last day of 2008

a lot of things happened in 2008

the biggest thing among all are i got into university

and the university is far from home
i need to learn how to stay alone

time past very fast, i am in second semester now

i make a lot of friends here

i enjoyed living alone nowadays

i still have a lot of things to learn

going to be 21 years old soon

time really past very fast

look back when i was young

now i am already near 21

i should be able to live independently

i should be able to make wise decision

i woke up very early in the morning today

maybe last night i slept too much

i woke up at 6.30am

and i lye on bed till 7.50am

this year is the first year i celebrate christmas without family

celebrate new year without family

celebrate birthday without family

and some chinese festival without family

i used to eat moon cake every year but not this year

i never eat even a piece of moon cake

i used to eat dumpling during the chinese month of 5

but not this year

i never work for so long during the year even after my spm

but this year i worked for 5 months after my stpm

a lot of things had changed this year

big things, small things.......

i did not do good job on year 2008

what i want now, i still not yet achieve

even some small things

maybe should say i did not work hard enough and be alert enough to get what i want?

erm..or what else?

but look back the time

it seems like i had wasted a lot of time

because my 2008 was quite empty

i need to do more and better in the coming 2009

haha..hope 2009 will bring me something new

and bring me something i want

yesterday in english class

i felt bored in the beginning of the class

but at the end of the class

i felt great

is really a great feeling that you know something that your class mate don't know

thanks for the debate club

my knowledge on certain things really improved a lot

i guess i will continue stay in

i think of leave debate club once

because of those lousy arrangement

and pointless arguements always happened

but it seems like those things not really related to me

and joining the club helped

so..so...just stay cool!!!

tonight i am going to have a stay in Sri pantai motel

because of the new year celebration

with few engineering campus students

luckily we sure have 5 ppl going

now seems like out of 10 people

3 of them are not going anymore from main campus

with some PARTICULAR reasons they have

luckily i had canceled a room last night

if not......

new year, new hope, new target, new energy

new friends, new things, new experiece

new people, even i wanted to make myself new

waiting for a brand new me.....

sad sad, old old go away........

happiness and new hope come near me :)

HAPPY 2009 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHEER FRIENDS!!! may all your dream come true

one more thing

i just read say ee's blog
and found out i left out something i want to write hehe
that day we went kek lok si (25/12/08)
i got a draw
overall is a quite good draw i think

on 27/12/08 saturday
i accidentally went to thai temple
and draw at the fortune teller machine
OMG !! unexpected, i got the almost exactly same explaination of the draw i got in kek lok si
hm....seems like the coming year might be the good year for me
hope it will be a good year!!!
i will become 21 soon !!!!

omg....angry

grrrrr...last night i slept 3am
i tried to upload some pictures to blogger but still cannot
today i woke up at 9 something in the morning
tried to upload also cannot
heng ah!!!

is 3am in the morning (29/12/08)

rain outside the window
the weather is cold

sometimes i think i am stupid
because of some stupid acts
but for me those acts are what i want
i said it is stupid because ppl will think it is stupid
do i need to care so much about what people think?
or i just need to follow what i like?

is 3 in the morning now
and i am still awake
i am sleepy
but i don't feel like sleeping yet
because i still have a lot to write and a lot to say
tomorrow is a holiday again
sometimes holiday makes me think
think of something that i had done before
think of something that i want to do
think of something that i wish to have
think of something that i already have
do something that i want to do

i guess sometimes i should not think too much
and just do it whatever i want
thinking too much will make things fail sometimes
but not thinking will always give regrets

so, what can i do?

sunday (28/12/08)

i got nothing to do on this boring sunday
i online in the morning
and i saw him
i was so happy
but i dont know whether i am right
do i hope too much?

i am not very happy now
because of something happened just now
what i want is very simple
why have to make it complicated?

i think you will never know how i feel after i heard what you said
i feel bad
i feel not good
but is ok
let time prove everything
i know time will prove it to all of us

after the rain, i will see the rainbow
let the rain pass follow time
and the rainbow will come next
rain rain go away.........

crazy saturday (27/12/08)

my friend and i had planned to go to tanjung bungah
we departed from school happily early in the morning
we took bus from school to komtar
at komtar we took a blue bus and went to tanjung bungah
i asked the bus driver to called me when reached tanjung bungah station
lol...at last we reached BATU FERRINGHI..
ok...is ok.......at least our destination is beach
we walked along the road and tried to walk to tanjung bungah
but there is a road which is quite dangerous
so after we took lunch
we take a bus
we planned to go toy museum
we asked the driver again to called us when reached toy museum
FINALLY, we passed the station again and the driver did not ask us to go down
hahahaha...hm...i asked someone in the bus and knew the way to thai temple
yes..finally..we went to thai temple and vietnam temple
is a lousy journey we have
but quite good experience
and i had explored some place
good start for my planning backpacking journey
hehe....i have fun and that is the first time i walked like that to place to place
i felt great !!

P.S : dont know whats wrong with my connection or maybe blogger, i couldn't upload pictures.
i will upload it on the coming post.

Fun Fair (22/12/08)

i went to fun fair when i was very young


its been long long time i did not go to fun fair


there is a pesta penang on going now


since i had went to sg nibong for the bus ticket on cny


so, waiting, waiting for two hours for the fun fair to open


haha..the fun fair open at 6pm-12pm


i went to get the entrence ticket at 6pm


feeling quite excited because is really long long time i did not go for fun fair


but when i reach inside


my god..nothing one


just some malay stall selling food, dress and etc


erm..but there are exhibitions and we just walk around


luckily till night..finally we saw EURO wheel, space shoot...bla bla bla


feel excited when saw all that


especially saw some stall having those fun fair game like lucky number, shooting..........


haha...want to change for tokens to play


swt....the token so expensive


1 token = rm2


wow..i still remember when i was young my parents brought me to fun fair it was only 1 token = rm1 or even cheaper....


is just some small game..why so so expensive?


finally i only changed for 2 tokens and played a game


hehe..i got two key chains as a reward for throwing the rings....


after that we walked around again


and we went to the mini garden


suprisingly


there is a orang utan inside


hahahahaha....i touched the orang utan


first time ever..the fur so rough but the hand look alike humans'


at around 9pm we took bus and back to our school


i enjoyed it and have fun!!!!!


hehe

P.S : i tried to upload many times the pictures but i couldn't upload. i don't know what happened..i will post the picture later

wow...wow...wow

finally my room can access to internet
so so so so extremely happy now
haha..i love my hostel now :P
at least when i am boring
it will not be that boring
hehe...
erm...first time can online in room
the feeling is so great
but anyway
have to control myself..
cannot online too much
have to make a timetable for myself
....happy happy happy happy..
happiest day since i stayed in university
cheerrrrrr!!!!!!

did santa ever come?

since i was young i believe in santa
but..did santa really exist?
i put a socks on the bed every year on 24th dec
till last year i guess i stoped because i realised santa seems did not come
when i was young, i put a socks for a present
when i am teenager, i still put a socks for a present
when i am now, i wanted to put a socks for a wish
did santa ever come to my bed?
will i see him this year?
..i have a wish..
..i might put a socks this year..
..because i hope my wish will come true..
..will this be too stupid?..
..or mayb i will meet Santa someday :) ..

今天

今天我又要去了

心里有一万个不愿意

但是我没有选择

早上起身心情还好

但，时间越来越近

眼泪不停在眼里打眶眶

但我不会让它流出

因为就算眼泪掉了

我也没有选择

。。。。。。。。。

dream

i had a dream last night
it was not a very good dream
but it seems sweet
i hope to stay in it forever
it is possible
i hope it is not forever a dream
i hope dream will come true someday

i don't hope
as i walk through the valley of death someday
i take a look at my life
and i realised there is nothing left..

is not that good

finally i got my first semester result yesterday
the result is just average
erm..is better than i expected
but is bad compared to others
still had a lot of feeling inside that i dont know should i bring it out
i think i shouldn't cos it will affect things
is ok
i used to be a LOSER !!
no matter in what aspect

my gloomy day

disappear
everything disappear in one day
i couldn't see anything in one day
i couldn't touch it
i scare i lost it
i scare i couldn't see again
because i never know what will happened next
i miss you so much
i wish i could grab you out of your dream
and hug you tight
thinking of you again today
wishing you weren't so far away
hope to meet you soon
MISS YOU so much

i love vampire

today i went to klcc and watched a very nice movie
i thought i wont meet any friend in klcc
shit!! while i am waiting my friend, i met UKM debators..
and i met yoong xiang also..
so long time did not meet him..suddenly met him today
i met jie jie on the way to the movie
met so many ppl in one day
first time.
hm..the movie is really so so so nice
touching, laughing, romance...
everything inside..
i love this movie so much
it is twilight
aboout human and vampires
if i could meet a vampire like Edward Gullen in the movie someday
i will not care whether is he a vampire.....

complicated

a complicated feeling suddenly come to me
i failed
i dont know how to manage the problem this time
is a complicated feeling between before and after
why everything cannot maintain by before?
'feelings' are volatile
it changes very fast
sometimes u dont even know it already changed
don't play with feelings
it can cherish u and kill u at the same time

finally

finally everything end
debate competition also end
i did upload the blog at my japanese blog..
but i wrote it in english there...
can drop there to take a look
i am home now..
today went to very nice date
thanks..
i hope you are my right person..
but....