Cheryl

Dialogue between two character- Sense of humor

2011-01-31T00:21:00.000-08:00

John is a joker among his friends. He always likes to joke around with his friends and that makes him famous in school and people likes to be with him because he always brings happiness.

One day, there is a new student (who is a joker as well at his formal school) and ask John :"Can you make me laugh with only a phrase?"
"Of course. There are many jokes with only one phrase. But i scared that you won't understand," John replied.
"LOL! I don't understand? You must be joking!" he said.

Lesson from the joke : People that able to use their sense of humor are smart. They can make others less caution and by accident, others might just agree that he is smarter.

Joke of the day

An African American leader is giving speech about emancipation of African to a group of whites : "Ladies and gentleman! It is not so much about to give speech as i am standing here, but it is more to i added some "color" to this occasion."
After the speech, audience laughed and applause.

Lesson from the joke : He started the speech with a joke and that minimized the seriousness of the topic, and the difference between races that caused argument disappear in the laughter. This is an effective interpersonal skill.

Describing setting - Scene 2

2011-01-31T00:12:00.000-08:00

A high class social gathering under yellow light. They are rich people with sophisticated fashion. Female dressed elegantly and attractive with jeweleries on. Wearing diamond earing, pearl necklace and bracelet. Male were in tuxedo and looking smart, full of charisma. Young and old, they were talking, chilling, drinking wine, smoking and smiling happily. There was a young man with a deep dimple with charismatic smile.

It turns to someone giving speech on the stage and everyone suddenly turned serious. The speaker was nervous.

The setting shown people in higher social class around 40's-50's.

Un-bless love

2011-01-15T23:12:00.000-08:00

“When I see your face, there’s not a thing that I would say…”. I looked into my phone, is a +041 number, I was so happy and picked up the call. We stay connected through call since I came back from Switzerland. We talked for a little while and he told me something made me almost fainted during that call…

It was 3rd of March 2010, it is your birthday, we met up in Zurich station and went around the city, had a meal by the lake side restaurant. You told me this was the happiest birthday you ever had. And you thank me for celebrating with you. It was my pleasure to spent time with you. Your green grey eyes, your reddish nose, your sunshine smile, your dark brown hair, your big hand and your big dark green overcoat, I still clearly remember everything on you that day. And highlight of the day was the moment you told me “I think I fall in love with you.”

That’s the beginning of the complicated affair. Happiness, sadness, tears, laughter, everything started from that moment. Happiness filled the atmosphere for the first week. The oxytocin in my body increased each day after that. I can laugh without any reason. I laugh even when I was watching a sad movie. That’s the effect of oxytocin. That’s why there is a saying where love is a magic spell that cured all kind of sickness. I finally knew that feeling since that moment.

We live one hour apart from each other. Since you are busy with your work, I made my effort to meet you at your city every weekend. We went around the city everytime we met. We told each other our problem and at the end of the day, that’s the saddest moment because we will only meet us on another week.

In a glance, was already three months. I went there for a student exchange program that only last for five months. You decided to leave your city and spent more time with me. You moved to my house. It was a tiny, squared room with simple furniture inside. Since then, we went everywhere together. Your working time is flexible so when I have school, you able to sent me to school and when I finished school, you will picked me back from school and we will shopped food for our dinner. Our little room is located in the city center, so after we had our shopping, we walked back to home and cook. That’s the happiest moment in my life and you told me it was yours too.

Happiness always ends faster than sadness. Six weeks past, is time for me to go back to Malaysia. The night before I left, we cried a lot. The time when we were in Zurich airport, we cried a lot. Suddenly, that was my saddest moment. And somehow in my heart, I knew that might be the last time we were so closed to each other. I wanted to think positively but I just had the feeling that you will slip away.

It’s been two months I back in Malaysia. We are still fine. Finally, this call came. He said in the phone : “I made a new tattoo. Is my daughter’s name. She lives in Thailand now.” At that moment, my feeling was I hit by the thunder, I cried so hard because I can’t believe it. I non-stop asking him, why? Why? Why? He is only one year older than me, I can’t believe that. I told my mom about this incident, and she comforted me. We broke up. I felt so hurt and so sad. It is too dramatic for me. But, I have to accept it.

How good if I were a boy? I asked myself everyday. If I were a boy, I definitely won’t let my girl fall and won’t let her tears. I will listen to her everyday and be by her side every moment she needs me. No matter how, I have to come back reality and accept the fact that I am a girl. And at the same time, accept the fact that, guy will never understand girl and never know that he hurt her.

Lyric link : http://www.metrolyrics.com/if-i-were-a-boy-lyrics-beyonce-knowles.html

Looking back on 2010 (Part 1)

2011-01-01T21:14:00.000-08:00

Another year is already here
2011, a new start, everything seems going quite well until now at least.
Starting this year with a bowl of half-cooked tomato rice bought from cafeteria.
But still, is a good beginning cause at least i still have food to eat.

Looking back 2010, is a really wonderful year for me
a year that full of experience, an exciting year
I am so lucky that i got scholarship from USM to participate in student exchange program.
I still clearly remember, on 5/2/2010, my flight was in the middle of the night around 2.15am.
Whole family sent me to the airport in the middle of the night.
Of course my parents was worried cause this is the first time i go oversea and by myself (i mean without family) and i have to be there for around 5 months+ without coming home.

I am really lucky cause my best friend and I got to go together :) and we were taking the same flight, so is not so scary for me on that day plus i was quite excited.
After 14 hours, finally i reached a place that covered with white.
It was snow, we were so excited cause we never see snow before. It was our very first time.

Someone (Buddy) from school took us from the "Zurich Flughafen", then fetched us back to St.Gallen. A small town that our school located. I was so excited along the way because that was first time in my life i saw snow everywhere, though it is not snowing that time.

After that, they brought my friend back to the room that she already rented online before she was there. I was so scared that time because i don't have any room. I thought i could stayed with my friend at her place for one or two nights, but things was never like I thought. The landlord don't allowed me to do so. I was so worry.

If it is not okay, it is not the end. So, I called up a friend of mine in Switzerland. I am so lucky that i knew her when she came exchange in Malaysia. She said she able to provide me accommodation for short period until i got to rent a room by myself. I felt more relief after that.

We walked around in the city center while waiting for my friend to pick me up. She stayed in a very small town that is quite far from St.Gallen. She took train to pick me up in St.Gallen. I was so relief the time i saw her. She brought me home and her mom was very nice to me. She let me stayed in her room and she stayed at her sister room. Her mom, her and me had dinner in the night together.

I was scared in the night because everything was so strange for me. I never been there before and it was a cold cold night. I don't have good sleep in the first night. Because i was still worried that i can't get a room and i still don't feel comfortable in the place. Snow covered all the roof and covered the ground. Was a very nice scenery.

Second morning, i woke up, i walked down and i saw her mom. And it was snowing. Is amazing. That was the first time to see snow. My friend woke up after that and open the door to let me feel the snow our there. I was so happy and excited. And everything seems so amazing for me.

Imagine that i sat in the dining room, having breakfast and i could see through the slide door that outside is snowing. So, Swiss typical breakfast was Bread, cheese, jam and a cup of tea or coffee. The bread is different than our bread in Malaysia, it is very hard outside and soft inside. I don't really like the cheese there because of the smell.

I go online everyday to look room for rent. I got a rpom after a day or 2 i search online. So, my friend from Malaysia accompanied me to the room to take a look to see whether is it a suitable place to stay. It was a good place and quite near to school with internet access and is furnished. I got to know few friends there. One of my housemate were from Hong Kong. And another is a swiss girl.

So, i went to school orientation for the first week, and school arranged some program for the exchange students to know each other. There are people from south korea, japan, thailand, poland, holand, lithuania, slovakia, greek, USA and mexico. So, for a week time, we knew each other and we mingle well.

Well, no matter how, I can see that Asia will always go with Asia, European stick to European, thats the phenomena when i was there, maybe that is due to culture?

I am writing too long for this post, guess i should stop here.
The story.... to be continued.... :)

in the middle of the night

2010-08-21T10:33:00.000-07:00

i woke up in the middle of the night
the first thing i will want to see is my phone
to see whether any new message from you

and i was disappointed every night
Everyone saying that i am too attached?
i thought u like it?
When we were in the same place, u like it
but now we were apart, you don't like it anymore?

I was hoping i will see u on Christmas
will it come true?
What are u doing now? This is the question in my mind all the time

I see you in my dreams
That's why i never wanna wake up in the morning
Cos i know u were not here when i wake up

Blue blue blue

2010-08-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

today is my blue day!
everything seems so blue to me.
walking in a crowded fun park with a lonely heart
sitting in a crowded restaurant with a lonely heart
how good if i am a billionaire?
i think if i am a billionaire now, i could buy my happiness
how good if everything go on my way?
i will not be blue now

Its been long time

2010-08-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

Its been long time i didn't update my blog
really long long time ago
since i went to Switzerland
i didn't update it.. :)

I was having too fun time there.
Miss there so much.
Now, back to Malaysia, problems came, that's why i am here to drop a word or two.

just felt that things never go smooth since i came back
Or maybe should say i didn't view things in another view
I felt everything is so unsure now
i know i am selfish cos i never stand on his situation to think
and i am selfish because i just thinking of myself
i only know how to give pressure
but does he know that i also having pressure now, that's why i ask every time?

I am also suffering
why i am not rich? IF i am, then i need not to think so much and take a flight and i will reach there again in a day.
i know his condition now is not so good as well, but i really want to see him so so much.
I miss so much the days i spent with him.
I miss so much the little room where we used to laugh, cry, crazy, shout, angry and all kind..
Now, because of distance, problems can't be solve so easily
I really in fear and worry now
Because i have too many unsure in my heart..
I felt so insecure you know? Nils..
Can you give me an answer and show me your confident that you can do it?
I am also having hard time here..

I hate waiting, i hate missing
Will i see him again?
this is the questions in my mind now..
I wish Santa brings me a present this year...

Mid valley- 26/1/2010

2010-01-27T01:05:00.000-08:00

i went to mid valley yesterday
saw few things that i would like to bring up here:
1. Tooth Fairy: I wanna watch some non-comedy movie initially, but i didn't found any good one, so decided to watch "Tooth Fairy". i thought it will be a boring and typical comedy but it turn out to be quite interesting, thou is still comedy, but interesting and really funny one. Actually is comedy + fantasy + love. i usually don't watch comedy in cinema cos i think it is waste of money but i change my thought yesterday, comedy might turn out to be good movie sometime when you are not really in a good mood. (argued at the beginning, sorry, i am really sorry about my stupid emotional act.)

2. After the movie, went to shopping, wanna find a pair of shoes. So, as i am finding, we went to the gardens. all branded shop, and yea, can't find what i want there. At XX cafe in The garden, i saw 3 monks hi-tea-ing there. There are a lot of cheaper places for them to have coffee and tea, but they choose an expensive one. isn't that is not right? they get money from public through the temple, they using public money to enjoy themselves. Just like there are a lot of RICH monk out there actually. What you think?

3. We went back to home by KTM. not really crowded in KTM that time because it is already quite late. So, as we are talking, we saw someone (a woman) getting money from the passenger, (she can talks in 3 languages and only one eye is blind) she still have the ability to work. after a while, she walk to me and ask: "Ms. Do you have...?" i immediately said i don't have anything. Then she said angrily: "i just want to ask you what time is it now? what don't have don't have? u think i am beggar. i saw your face also know you are stingy." i was angry. and he calm me down. she is clearly a beggar, and nobody ask "Do u have..?" when the person is asking about time. i was really angry and F***, i scolded by a beggar and she said i am stingy. FML

luckily everything ended up quite well, but i am kinda sad because i am leaving Malaysia soon, but i know i will be enjoying there. Europe, here i come!!

=.=

2010-01-03T06:59:00.000-08:00

haha. i guess most of the ppl misunderstood my previous post is about love.
it is about a friend. about friendship. :)
i also misunderstand it when i read it again after i posted :P

I changed or?

2009-12-27T06:23:00.001-08:00

i knew since when i started to feel there is something wrong between us
i just can't find back the feeling like we used to be
i miss the old time when we were together laughing and non-stop talking
i think i changed
i think you changed too

i knew now you are great, greater than me in everything
Our standard getting different?
I felt bad with your words sometime
even when some small words will touch my feeling
i not dare to sit down and talk to you
because i think will end up getting worst
and i have that thinking because i tried to talk to you
and that is the time our relationship getting worst i think

i miss it when we talked without hesitate
i miss it when we laughing together
i miss it when we talk some mean words to each other
i miss everything between us

But time so cruel
it faded our relationship
and because we live in different circle
we become different
i can't find anymore common point between us
i can't find a topic to talk anymore between us
i even felt awkward when i see you sometime

i hate the feeling that we aren't same anymore

Hoping that things will back to before again
like we used to be

Too peaceful?

2009-11-23T06:10:00.000-08:00

coming back to home

everything seems so peaceful

i am not that kind of person that like really peaceful feeling

i like noise i like to be with a lot of ppl

of maybe two people when just me and him :P

this time is weird,

i felt weird that i am already at home

i felt weird that very soon i am leaving Malaysia

and start an adventure in a brand new place that i never been

not even been to some countries near there :P

i should miss my family a lot

but it turn out to be weird

the feeling to be home is just not the feeling like before?

i had changed a little i guess

but now getting used to it and the feeling coming back

haha

still enjoy to be with my mom

shopping, making some weird dishes that i learnt from magazines

online-ing and etc...

nothing much to do at home actually

just relaxing all the time and i don't really feel like going anywhere

my heart and my mind just missing *** now

>.<>

finally

2009-11-21T22:59:00.001-08:00

finally back to my home sweet home yesterday

have a very nice trip before that :)

thanks everything

after all the pressure, i had nothing much to say now

hahahaha

oh..if have a lot a lot of things to express

2009-11-15T04:56:00.002-08:00

Felt so damn bad lately

but exam time now

so cannot write too much.

for now i only pray for the plan still same. :(

hope there is no changes.

Don't ever think that someone is the best!

there is no the best in the world,

there is always another the best even when you think that you are the best.

Stop showing off in front of me.

Why already last week for the semester still so many assignments?

2009-10-13T23:02:00.001-07:00

wow..i thought i am so free

but actually i am damn busy

i have free time to watch drama, to play game, to write blog, to sleep

but......

in life there is always but (this is what dr. harjit always like to say :P)

i don't have time for revisions and assignments

Still have 3 assignments to go

How the fuck i should complete my macromedia director?

No one using director nowadays

And everyone is using flash

why we should stepping backward and do the things that people don't do now?

Life is so so so miserable sometime

but....

as i said there is always a but

full of surprise

Very very moody suddenly

2009-10-09T04:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

i became so so so moody suddenly :(

felt like the world only left me alone

no confident at all

don't even dare to look at people face to face

Always peeping someone at behind

Really no confident at all

Why i am not the pretty one?

Why i am not the smart one?

There are just too many why in my mind

I am just a fatty and dumpy

That makes people feel irritate

Nobody will like me

Today, i still feel the same

I hate this feeling :(

No tittle

2009-09-29T22:08:00.000-07:00

Everything seems so unreal

Everyone seems so fake

Life is too short to care about too much

Quality relationship

2009-09-29T20:50:00.000-07:00

" what is quality relationship?" i asked.

"quality relationship is relationship that last long." he said

" is it the relationship that lead to marriage?" i asked

"no, i don't want to get married. i just want to put a ring on her finger?" he said

"why?" i asked

"i think that a ring is enough. marriage is just a responsibility. i just want to live together with her." he said

"yea, it is enough and nice that can live together happily." i said

Go back again

2009-09-26T06:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes is tiring to come here and there

i always feel excited to come back

always depressed when going back

Will i have anxiety with too much up and down feeling?

lol..

P.S : Pressure killing me too :(

i am evil

2009-09-25T01:16:00.001-07:00

i always have bad thought in my mind

hahahahhahaha..

i am an evil devil

Happy to be that way.

Getting Crazy!!!

i am always an emo girl

2009-09-15T23:55:00.000-07:00

i can be very happy in front of you
but i am very moody in the deep deep heart
i can always smile i front of you
but i am crying in the rain
i can always be confident in front of you
but i have low self-esteem in me

i am not a person that everyone likes
i lose in so much of things
i even lose to myself but no one knows

if you come to me and say wanna find a good friend
you come to the wrong place
i am never a good friend

who knows what i am thinking now?

Time

2009-08-23T19:57:00.001-07:00

i hope the time can pass faster till the day i graduate

but i need more time to do my things

in deep shit now

NOT ENOUGH TIME !!

Is just on my face

2009-08-16T08:31:00.000-07:00

everything is just on the surface

in deep deep down my heart

there are a lot of sadness and dissatisfaction and all kind of

unpleasant feelings inside...

物以群分，人以类聚

2009-08-16T08:27:00.000-07:00

很对很对很对的一句妙言

尤其最近发身在我身上的事

更显得这句谚语超妙的！

一句简单的言语，却包含了许许多多的含义。

妙！

很想去到一个没人认识我的地方

2009-08-07T05:37:00.000-07:00

我真的很想去到一个没人认识我的地方

我很想离开，离开这给我带来许许多多烦恼的地方。

我开始觉得害怕，因为有人妥协了

显得我好像是整天给人带来麻烦的人

名都臭透了！

我的后果会如何呢？

我有事时又会怎么样呢？

许许多多的烦恼，压得我透不过气

我讨厌现在的生活。

如果我睡了，明天起不来了，那该多好啊！

no boundaries

2009-07-19T21:16:00.000-07:00

when i feel i lost my way

and my chances were already gone

i started believing that i could be wrong

but you gave me one good reason

to fight and never walk away

So here i am still holding on

Set me free

2009-07-19T20:55:00.000-07:00

Stop pressuring me

Stop coming to me

Please set me free

A very shit morning but a very good day yesterday (16/7/09)

2009-07-16T23:48:00.000-07:00

a very shit meeting in the morning yesrterday felt damn bad about it
if you dont believe me, critic my idea, pls don't ask for my idea.
EVERYTHING i do will be DUMB LAME JOKES for u
you are so so so smart, u should get everything done by yourself!!!! fucker!!

and u, penjaga counter!! everyone also know that duty at the counter don't have money
SO I DONT NEED U TO TELL
i do things is not because of money, u think i am like u? BITCH!!
the head shoe is very delicious, u should LICK it!!
i know you enjoy LICKING it!
U did very great job, good luck in your LICKING!!

finally, afternoon, great!! met new frens
so so so cute friend..ah ha!! looks confident, independent and cute.
Pretty somemore!
Morgan and Katja, really nice to meet you guys!

my night, great!! Met a great taxi driver!!
when there is something bad happened at first, there will be something good come ahead
Fucker and Bitch, u did spoiled my mood in the morning, but yea..thanks for the thing happened at afternoon and night!! my day was great!!

Don't give up.

heng ah!!

2009-07-12T21:06:00.000-07:00

Why everytime also like that?

grrrrrrrr.....

i thought there should be all the friendly person there

but i guess i was totally wrong

maybe i will stop right after this project

don't you guys think that you all should be more friendly?

一颗没人发觉的小豆

Sunday

2009-07-11T19:17:00.000-07:00

A Lovely Sunday morning

Sun is hiding

Cloudy day

Cold wind blew

People holiday-ing

What a lovely Sunday...

Debate ? ?

2009-07-11T00:38:00.001-07:00

Just back from the first debate meeting for this semester

found out that i got very very rusty

gave a very very bad speech without any point

What's the purpose of all those debate competition actually?

in the end of every debate, what is the solution for the brought up problems?

seems like nothing solve right?

so why should they have debate?

Debate for nothing is kinda funny

It is just to fulfill the interest of human in arguing

Or in a better way to say is argue about a big topic following some rules

Funny Funny Funny

Switzerland ! here i come!

2009-07-10T09:31:00.000-07:00

my second year classes started this week

things getting heavy but what to do

have to accept it

went to see counsellor yesterday cos felt depressed

after speak out everything

feeling much more better

just got to know i got full scholarship for the student exchange that i had applied

feeling so surpirse about it

and at the same time feeling kinda depressed too

maybe i am thinking too much

after meeting the counsellor and i spoke out everything that makes me feel uncomfortable

today i guess i am feeling better and feeling very good about the student exchange

today i surf websites about Switzerland

it is a really wonderful country

i guess IF I ABLE to go

it will be a very good experience for me :)

BACK TO USM (4/7/09)

2009-07-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

going back to usm tomorrow
feeling sad about it
at the same time getting better and reaslized i have to continue to overcome everything that come to me
feeling kinda weird...

人言可畏

2009-07-02T22:24:00.001-07:00

做了许多不愿意的事，因为人言可畏

每天戴着面具做人，因为人言可畏

无论多不想做都一定要强迫自己去做，因为人言可畏

表面做得很好很乖，因为人言可畏

假装，因为人言可畏

打破脸皮充胖子，因为人言可畏

忽略了自己的感受，因为人言可畏

真的很想躲起来做自己爱做的事，不必向任何人交代人和我做的事！！

或许我太过介意别人对我的看法了吧！

我即将成为大二生

2009-06-30T20:25:00.000-07:00

放了两个月的悠长假期，又是时候回到那“美好”的大学去

一失足成千古恨，到现在我还是有点后悔当初选了个蛮奇怪的科系

从大一开始每当大家问我读什么科时，我说：“我读翻译系。”

大家都会觉得很好奇。到底是读什么的呢？

大家都以为我主修的是某某外语。我选这一科时，我也以为自己可以学很多的语言。

小学到中学，比起科学与数学，我的语文课都比较强，所以我会选择这一科。

其实，到今天为止，我觉得我念的东西总是怪怪的。有语言，但并非我想象中那样。

我的主修更是好笑。有时我也不知道我念这一科是为何。

上了大学我才发现语言基础的重要性。

当初以为自己的语言比其他科强，但到了大学我才发现我的语言其实也不强。

而且好选不选，偏偏选了个离家里还蛮远的大学。

每当要回去，心情总是特别的沉重，心酸酸的，根本都不想回去。

回想起来，都怪自己笨，做了个错误的选择。

我现在已没回头的机会，只好硬着头皮走下去，毕竟这是自己的选择。

三年其实很快过，我已经读了一年，还有两年，其实都是转眼就过的时光。

许多人都希望读大学，我却幸运的进了大学，是否应该开心地度过呢？

虽然已经大二，但我那太过不独立的性格让我老妈操心了。

她拿了一份报纸让我看。题目是“写给新鲜人的信”。

我把那四封信都读完了。我一样也没做到。

其实我也不想平平凡凡，浪浪费费德度过这三年。

但我不知道可以做些什么来充实自己。

我对大学的团体觉得无聊。

他们的管理方式让我觉得很不舒服。

已经大二了，或许我应该让我的日子过得充实些，找些目标让自己努力地达成。

找些精神寄托，让自己活得更开心应该是最重要吧！

该从梦中醒来了，走走看看，发掘身旁的事物，开始美好人生的旅程吧！

MJ's death

2009-06-28T00:47:00.000-07:00

MJ gone!!

everybody was shock with his sudden death.

he is a legendary dancer.

i am not really his fans, but i felt a little sad also about his death.

my mom likes him, that's why i know him.

i read storis about him this morning, and the stories behind the great him are really touching my heart

i should be feeling lucky that i had great childhood

i do think that his father is really cruel, take away the time that his children should be playing in playground, eating ice-cream and running on the field .......

but, in the other point of view, if his father doesn't treat him or the rest of the children "cruely",

will he become the Michael Jackson that we knew today?

the moonwalker, the amazing lean in smooth criminal, all the iconic dance........

happy birthday to u

2009-06-26T07:11:00.001-07:00

wanna make some special thing for you, but failed at last

its kinda disappointed..

maybe i should learn better before your birthday

i promise i must make it for you when i really success in making it

wanna make a nice one for u

ONE MORE TIME

Happy 21st birthday to you!

>.<

2009-06-07T19:33:00.001-07:00

less than one month to go back to school

not in good mood :(

should i proud to be one of the student in Apex university?

2009-06-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

A big "joke" happened in the university i am studying currently

"system error" ?

true or not?

hahaha

should i be proud about apex?

Maybe i should, cause i am one of the student inside.

=.="

11 things

2009-05-31T01:23:00.001-07:00

Rule 1: Life is not fair - get used to it!

Rule 2 : The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule 3 : You will NOT make $60,000 a year right out of high school. You won't be a vice-president with a car phone until you earn both.

Rule 4 : If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss.

Rule 5 : Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your Grandparents had a different word for burger flipping: they called it opportunity.

Rule 6: If you mess up, it's not your parents' fault, so don't whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule 7: Before you were born, your parents weren't as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you thought you were. So before you save the rain forest from the parasites of your parent's generation, try delousing the closet in your own room.

Rule 8: Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life HAS NOT. In some schools, they have abolished failing grades and they'll give you as MANY TIMES as you want to get the right answer. This doesn't bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule 9: Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you FIND YOURSELF. Do that on your own time..

Rule 10: Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Rule 11: Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

very very moody

2009-05-31T01:17:00.000-07:00

very very very very moody today

=.= 31/5/09 is not my day

i wish time could freeze at 30/5/09

Genting trip (28/5/09)

2009-05-29T00:43:00.000-07:00

i went to Genting yesterday. unexpected cold.

colder than the last time i went there.

is kinda weird to see this fenomena because it is damn hot on the ground(KL).

just went there to walk around and enjoy they freezy cold wind.

there is a free shuttle now from highland hotel to a temple named Tsin Swee Temple.

We went there for a vegetarian meal.

After that we look around the temple, it has been changed a lot.

A very special place i would like to bring up here is the explanation in about life in HELL.

About life after death and what punishment for human which did wrong things.

as i expected

2009-05-21T20:45:00.000-07:00

Actually the it is what i had expected

i should not be too sad about something that i had expected earlier

this is a lesson for me

i should not be sad because i still learn something in the end

+tive is what i need

Better

2009-05-17T20:21:00.000-07:00

Feeling better when there is someone out there supporting me.

i am not totally being ignored.

What should i do when i felt down?

this world is so cruel

2009-05-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

scary, cruel, full of evil world,

hope i am not a human,

if i have the chance to choose,

i don't hope to become human again.

the human world is too complicated for me.

or maybe i am too naive..

Did i tell a lie?

2009-05-13T20:52:00.000-07:00

tiring, fear..

i don't know should i tell the truth

A ROOM IN MY HEART (Faith Hill)

2009-05-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

My heart was once just like a home
With many rooms and open doors
And I always let love in
It would change the rooms around and then
Leave them empty

'Til one by one I locked each door
And soon forgot what love was for
But I never gave up hopin'
So I left just one door open
In case you found me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before
There's a room in my heart for you

We'll paint the walls from blue to white
And set the mood by candlelight
Together we'll keep out the cold
And I'll still be there when we're old
If you'll let me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before
There's a room in my heart for you

finally home sweet home

2009-05-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

i reached home yesterday at around 8 something
i should be reached home much much early
aiks..taking plane is not a very good idea
the plane from 4.05pm delay until 5.30pm
although reaching kl is faster but aiks..need to wait wait wait at airport..
my heart just wanna go back faster but still have to wait
the feelings irritated me
but was too too happy and excited when i saw my mom
she touch my face while she saw me
i think she also too long didnt see me
my mom and dad was so happy too
haha..first time saw them so happy
studying in uni is not really a wonderful thing
i have to stay far from home but....
i love my home very much
i miss home dishes so so so much
i never appreciate what my mom cooked before
but now i hope to eat it everyday
and i miss american idol as well
miss to watch it every week
i miss everything at home
but the relaxation will only last for two months
i wish i no need to go back anymore
............finding job now.......

THE SECRET

2009-04-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

i don't believe it when i heard people talking about it
i thought it was nothing so miracle about it
but i was wrong after i read the book "The Secret"
omg...it really come true
i did some small experiments on it
it really came true

so at last is really between me and the universe
nothing much to worry about
just think for what i want and work for it

the Genie said "Your wish is my command"
so do the universe
is that true?
better to believe it than not
because the world are full of miracles

wahahahhahha!!! Nice book!!
wanna get the copy of DVD
wanna start do a vision board for myself
my visionssss here i come
wish me success :P
haha...

we have our own life now

2009-04-05T23:06:00.000-07:00

we have our own life now
no matter how close we are
we just cant get as close as before anymore

cos we have our own circle now
and we have grown up
i really miss the day we used to be

no use to look back
things will not get back the same as they are

我累了

2009-04-01T19:51:00.000-07:00

我真的很累很累
生活中不如意事时常都有
但是我真的累了
朋友之间的纷争
多不胜数
你以为很好的朋友其实并不是你想象中那样

假面具实在太多了
甚至我也戴着面具生活
大学生活并不是想象中那么的美好
繁重的课业
各方面的压力
压得我喘不过气来

其实有时是否我过于介意人家的眼光呢？
我担心别人如何看我
我介意别人对我有不好的印象
我也喜欢在别人背后说一些不好听的话，
我知道我也难免不会被人在背后说我的坏话，
但是我没想到平时可以开开心心在一起的人原来一切都是表面而已，
或许现在我所看到的都只是表面而已吧！

我真的觉得很累，
对于某些人我觉得更累，
我讨厌三人行，
两个人的感觉比较自由自在，
三人行的感觉很讨厌，
因为总有一人会被忽略
而从以前到现在我大概都是那个人吧！

心情真的超级差，考试考不好，
功课赶来赶去，
我知道每个人可能都一样，
所以我才说没有倾诉的对象。
找不到倾诉的人
是最可悲的

我想回到过去，回到那个熟悉的自己，
回到那个原来的自己。
我累了！！

LOL

2009-03-30T00:49:00.000-07:00

Things should not be like that !
Appreciation is a very important lesson in life
no matter in what aspect

before is vase and now is fresh prepared dishes

2009-03-25T01:37:00.001-07:00

definition of vase : - only for display

definition of fresh prepared dishes :-
step to prepared :
1. observing for suitable "dish"
2. buy it with barter sistem :- your saliva, my "attention"
3. wait for the big day
4. time up, dishes can be served.

after served:- someone critic and said it cannot be eat and just left it rudely
- someone waiting for the chef to discuss the factor of the undelicious dishes

funny story after all.......
someone that did not get the grapes said the grapes are sour
dramatic..
"dishes" says :- wait for the "fresh" start

AGM

2009-03-24T03:30:00.000-07:00

i will be attending an AGM tonight
why every club have to have AGM?
actually i don't really believe in AGM results
it just basically let us get used to politics before we step into the society
actually is it in every AGM the board members are already fixed? ..i am wondering..
for certain clubs i guess it is
then actually AGM is just a dramatic scene to show everyone
"Yes, we have our new board members by VOTING."
nice to watch and nice to hear
but the truth, behind knows...
haha..rushing now to have dinner with my friend
will drop by soon

Sensitive > me

2009-03-23T01:07:00.000-07:00

am i too sensitive sometimes?
i am thinking of how to change myself lately
i think i still have a lot to change
how can i be less dependent to others?
sometime too dependent is kinda irritating
and will become burden sometime
i don't want to become burden to anyone
i know you might not think that i am a burden
but when you get angry with me sometimes
i feel like i am a burden to you
there are times i think nonsense
i know i will be very disappointed and sad if you went off my life
i don't know how can i satisfied you
i get emotional easily sometimes
i hope you can understand my feelings well
at the same time i will try to understand you too
you always say i cannot understand certain thing
but actually i understand just i used to become the person that always have "priority" at home
i wish to become a priority for you too
you said i am but i felt that i am not
am i too sensitive?
i think i am
but this is who i am
how can i change to become a less sensitive people
i just wish things can be different sometimes
tones of work waiting for me now
i got headache again everyday
do you know that?
you always say you care for me, i felt it sometime
i felt it not sometime
..................................................Sensitve > ME..............................................

something in my life

2009-03-14T00:10:00.000-07:00

as my friend said i am very "good" in critisizing others
is not good to critisize right?
i think so not good
but sometime i just come out some cristizing words
haha..thats me :P

but one thing i now
when i am critisizing someone here
and there will be someone critisize me too
lately i found that she is not as bad as i think
maybe she just lack of some communication skill
she act fierce maybe she don't know how to communicate with students
or maybe in the bottom of her heart she want to hide something
maybe that is one kind of protection towards herself
she just express herself in a "unkind" way
that is my impression towards her now

i saw in my friend's profile
this is written in his profile
"in Love, there is someone who offer the cheek and someone who kisses the cheek"
yes, i felt that is very true
i won't offer my cheek or kiss someone cheek if i don't love that person
i like this phrase

next week i going to hand in 3 assignments
i dont 1 of it
still working hard on the other two
just "stealing" some time to write in an entry

sem end exam coming soon
two weeks later will be study week
after that i will have my exam
why the exam time for my co-course so weird this time?
the exam till 29th, i am going back on 30th
aiks..i should get a 29th one
cos everybody is going back on 29th :(
but no choice now, already booked the air ticket
first time fly from penang to kl
i think will feel very good because i save at least 3 hours and 15 minutes
hahahahahahha....

submitted the form to become buddy lately
still waiting for the interview
but i heard that i need to come back earlier for the buddy stuff
aiks..already bought air ticket
hope i can excluded from this time activity if i success in the interview

nice trip

2009-03-09T20:22:00.000-07:00

i had a nice trip last weekend
since there are 3 days continuous holidays because of prophets mohammad birthday
i went to langkawi with my friend

this trip is quite different than before
i went to places that are different than which i went before
first day, i reached the jetty at about 7.45am
the ferry was 8.15am
so after got the ticket i went to the jetty and get the ferry
i reached there at about 11.00am
it was a very long journey in the ferry
felt so tired
after reached the hotel
got some rest then went out to underwater world which is just 15 minutes walk from the hotel
this is the schedule for first day

second day, i got car rental
then drove to gunung machincang
on the way, stopped by harbour park and have lunch
around half an hour
reached gunung machincang
the cable car is really quite expensive
aiks..i forgot to bring my mykad
so have to pay rm30 for the ticket
but when reached up the mountain
wow..feel like in genting
nice view up there
i never been so cool in langkawi
haha..
after that, went to the seven wells
long long walked :(
hot..sweat...
reached the waterfall but nothing there
only the same view as i seen on gunung machincang
around 6pm, went back to hotel to bath
then drove again to town and shopping
around 9.45pm drove back to shop and return the car
stupid car rental store said wanna fined rm20 because we late for 20 minutes
we argued for a while
finally i won
hahaaha....
raining, but have to walked back to hotel
luckily is not too far
at the entrence of the road to hotel
there is a restaurant
have dinner there
nice food..better than what i ate for the first day
getting tired
reached hotel
sleep....
the end of second day

third day...
in the morning, went to the sea and swim
the sun was really hot
after than went to the mall near underwater wolrd again to buy some chocolate
then called taxi to fetch to jetty point again
ate lunch there, then online at starbucks and wait for the ferry
not happy because going to leave
:( time up, went to ferry
sleep for a while
sunset..
very nice one
went to the dashboard of the ferry and enjoyed the beautiful of sunset
its only 4 minutes
the sunset makes me feel
beautiful and happy time gone in a blink of eyes
and after all the nice thing
we have to come to the cruel reality again

is a sad sad night for me

wish i could have chance again soon

have lots of nice pic..bt don't know why couldn't upload

thank you

2009-02-28T03:46:00.000-08:00

thank you Wen Ding for today cos accompany me walk here and there just to get my ferry ticket, thank you very much

there is nothing fair in this world, is it true?

after i had give up on something, will i get back something as replacement?

Life is too short to allow me to think too much

Life is too short to have too much miserable things

Life is too short to let me hate someone

but, there are still too much to think of, too many miserable things happened and someone to hate

Is everything happening now is a dream?

will i wake up someday and lost everything?

i thought i will be better today, but i still feeling very "bu gan xin" because of the debate club stuff

but, who knows my leaving will be a good thing for me

i know even if i stay there i will not have chance

no chance to be who i want to be

am i convincing myself that leaving is correct?

At the end of the day, is actually just between you and me.

So, should i care?

this is my now

2009-02-27T10:26:00.000-08:00

what to do with life?
i don't really understand what mean by life actually.
am i sounding too pessimistic?
when i have to make a decision, why do i need to think?
Can i just decide without thinking?
Do i need a reason to hate someone?
Do i need a reason to leave something?
Can i have the time to stop a while for me?
Is really hard when you have to make a decision when you don't really feel like you want to do
i felt really hard
i had think thousand times actually
What makes me stay in the club?
i still can cheat myself with some minor reasons before this
but after yesterday, i can't think of a reason why i should stay in the club
but i can think reasonssssss why i should leave the club
so? have i made a right decision?
what will happened next?
i really wanted to get involve in the activities
but who cares about what i felt?
i am invisible today
the feeling is really bad
because of that i had really made my decision to leave
but why i felt quite bad after i wrote the letter to the president?
i thought myself had already made the decision
i already sent the letter
i have no turning back
i think i should look forward now to find my new road
i think there are always opportunities in life

i always don't like this person but i can't tell the reason
finally i got the reasons two days ago
should i be happy? or should i congratz myself for having one more enemy in this world?
or should i just close one eye and keep on diguising?
OMG..i hate to be fake
why i can't always be myself?
why should i care about how people think of me?

how can i satisfy her?
this is the biggest problem i have now
too many things to think of
this is my now.......

blogss

2009-02-26T10:29:00.000-08:00

wow...long time did not log in to blogspot and read others blog
reading now
really got to know a lot of things
hm...this is the benefit of blog
can 8 ppl stuffs..hahahahha

i have a bad day

2009-02-26T00:23:00.000-08:00

today is the first time i been scold by a lecturer so so badly
feel very very unhappy now
i heard everyone said she is a biased teacher
after i heard that i already getting be careful when she is teaching
i don't really believe in the beginning but day by day
i think i HAVE TO believe it
she just scold scold scold scold in every lesson
scold more than teach
always make students feel bad
i don't know how others think but she really make me feel bad
and i refuse to attend her class
i attend because i have no choice
we are just like primary student that just started the second level of a language
why she want to scold scold scold instead of tried to teach us and correct our mistake?
now i know which one is better
is it a mistake i had taken japanese as minor?
i don't really like it at the beginning, but since Rika sensei is very good, i feel like the subject is still ok for me
but....aiks...second half of this semester is just like shit
i really scared i will get very bad grade this time
two weeks later will have an interview with the "pronounciation queen"
i already done not that good in the last interview
i scare this time i will be worst because she makes me think that
she hates me so much
she cant even pronounce the "h" well
but she still crictic on our pronounciation
omg....how long i still have to stand with this fucker?
she really makes me want to scold her with bad word
is it she is in pre-menopause or what?
she argue with her husband everyday?
or is she married?
almost the end of last semester
i feel better with japanese
but now.......
it's complicated
pls pray for my sem end exam
i hope i wont get bad grade for japanese
yeah..one more thing..
i hope "someone" (i guess ppl who are reading this will know who is that) can tell me through what mistake i had made during the discussion
i know is my responsible for my own mistake
you can blame me after the presentation
but we are learning together right?
so i hope you can tell me my mistake during the discussion but not blaming me after the presentation
if you mind that because my mistake i had made the group get scolded, then i apologize.

i wish to see my future suddenly..i wish so much to see it

2009-01-28T08:53:00.001-08:00

i wish so so much to see my future now
i scare i am doing the wrong things now
i don't know is it stupid to do this
chinese new year passed very fast
i am going back to ipoh tomorrow
tiring journey will start soon
i am used to the days without you
but i just feel very sad suddenly cos i will be far from you again
still in the same pieces of land but it is far
why life have to be like this?
i am tired of studying and passing day by day like this
can i have something that i wish to hold it in my hand forever?
i don't want to change anything
i just want to maintain what it was before
changing makes me feel uncomfort
it seems like these days i had back to someone i used to be
i found back who i really is
i was lost for sometimes
i lost my identity for quite a long time
now i am back
thanks for bringing me back
i hope i can freeze the happiest time i ever had

omg...so many assignments

2009-01-12T00:04:00.000-08:00

omg..so so many assignments suddenly..
hm hm....have to rush rush rush
not feeling very well lately somemore
just need to plus oil plus oil
today need to find transposition, modulation and synonymy examples from my dear pride and prejudice book
ahh...need to present it on wednesday..
pray pray pray...
hope i got to find it later when i go back to hostel
5pm to 7pm still have to attend a class..
so so regret to join the club...
Community service
but never go out and serve the community
and they planned to cheat sponsor somemore
they want some companies to sponsor them for annual dinner
and where to find such stupid company to give them free dinner?
so they planned to think of something related to 'charity' like invite some orphan or old folks to join the dinner
haiz...is this called community service?

debate BBQ

2009-01-09T11:00:00.001-08:00

went to a BBQ tonight
it was the best BBQ i ever had
haha...previously i went twice to my friend's house for BBQ, this is the best among those
the BBQ i had before is quite messy
we BBQ at N-park
the place is really nice
the wind is nice
haha..
the pools is nice
all kind of pools there
we played cards game on the pool side till 12 something
after that the guard asked us to leave because we are not allowed to be there after 12am
then, sai mon fetched us to gurney's mcd
lol..we misunderstood the place
the seniors wanted to go a place called Greenlane, Mcd
hm...we been lost for almost half an hour i guess
finally we reached, is around 1.30am already
we continue the card game
the losers got some very funny and embarrassing punishment
around 2.30am, finally i reached my hostel
hm..but i had fun and enjoy although i was tired
is 3.20am now..and i guess i will sleep soon...
Zzzzzz....tired

should i tell?

2009-01-05T01:10:00.001-08:00

i have something in my heart for quite some time already
should i tell it out?
i am struggling that whether i should tell it out
i scared it will leave a scar
sometimes we can't see anything from surface
but..actually..inside might be bleeding or.....
disguising is not a good feeling
but still have to disguise
is this what called life?

pictures for the last few posts

2009-01-04T03:08:00.000-08:00

the first few pictures took from kek lok si. my friends and i went to kek lok si during christmas. the 'silver people' i took it on the foot of the hill. he is doing some show there.

After that few pictures from t-bowl which is located at queensbay mall. we went there on chrsitmas eve. is quite special place and the food is quite nice.

The lower pictures took from fun fair during pesta penang. the pesta held at sg. nibong. i had fun because long long time did not go to fun fair.

new year eve

2009-01-02T18:33:00.000-08:00

great, special new year eve i had this year
my friends and i went to tanjung bungah for new year eve celebration this year
is not really a celebration
just because the day after is new year
so we used 'this opportunity' to have fun
haha
i booked a motel in tanjung bungah
hm..amazing...really just beside the sea.....
nice nice nice
that night we planned to go batu ferringghi to see the night view there
but we waited for quite long already still cannot find any bus
so just back to our motel
before that we ate in the hawker stall in front of our motel first
then time up....!!!!! HAppy new year!!!!
firework can heard everywhere
then we rush to see firework
after that we went to seaside to walk
nice feeling
there are quite a number of people at the beach
some people playing firework at the beach
very nice
and very close
we can see the firework
after that
we went back to the motel
and bathe
and after that play truth or dare
i don't really like this game honestly
maybe because i don't like to be honest
haha...
we did not sleep for whole night
till morning sleep for a while
my firend and i went to beach wanna see sun rise in the morning
kinda stupid
because our direction is we can only see sun set
the seaside is feezing cool in the morning
but there are still some people running at the beach
then we went back to room
and continue to sleep
around 12pm
we go to seaside again to walk for a while
after that
we all felt hungry
and planned to eat at near the motel
unfortunately
there is nothing to eat in the morning
then we went back to the motel again
and packed
and prepared to check out
hm hm....
our next destination
GURNEY Plaza
taken our breakfast + lunch at gruney plaza
then we watch movie
we watched 'YES MAN'
funny movie
haha...laugh laugh laugh
then around 8 something i reached my hostel
come back to my hostel again
don't know why suddenly felt very down
erm...i think i should know the reason but i am trying to fun away from the reason
after a while i slept

everything was very very nice
i had a very nice new year eve
with all my crazy friends
haha..thanks all
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
wish good things will come one by one :)

the last day of 2008

2008-12-30T15:56:00.000-08:00

today is the last day of 2008

a lot of things happened in 2008

the biggest thing among all are i got into university

and the university is far from home
i need to learn how to stay alone

time past very fast, i am in second semester now

i make a lot of friends here

i enjoyed living alone nowadays

i still have a lot of things to learn

going to be 21 years old soon

time really past very fast

look back when i was young

now i am already near 21

i should be able to live independently

i should be able to make wise decision

i woke up very early in the morning today

maybe last night i slept too much

i woke up at 6.30am

and i lye on bed till 7.50am

this year is the first year i celebrate christmas without family

celebrate new year without family

celebrate birthday without family

and some chinese festival without family

i used to eat moon cake every year but not this year

i never eat even a piece of moon cake

i used to eat dumpling during the chinese month of 5

but not this year

i never work for so long during the year even after my spm

but this year i worked for 5 months after my stpm

a lot of things had changed this year

big things, small things.......

i did not do good job on year 2008

what i want now, i still not yet achieve

even some small things

maybe should say i did not work hard enough and be alert enough to get what i want?

erm..or what else?

but look back the time

it seems like i had wasted a lot of time

because my 2008 was quite empty

i need to do more and better in the coming 2009

haha..hope 2009 will bring me something new

and bring me something i want

yesterday in english class

i felt bored in the beginning of the class

but at the end of the class

i felt great

is really a great feeling that you know something that your class mate don't know

thanks for the debate club

my knowledge on certain things really improved a lot

i guess i will continue stay in

i think of leave debate club once

because of those lousy arrangement

and pointless arguements always happened

but it seems like those things not really related to me

and joining the club helped

so..so...just stay cool!!!

tonight i am going to have a stay in Sri pantai motel

because of the new year celebration

with few engineering campus students

luckily we sure have 5 ppl going

now seems like out of 10 people

3 of them are not going anymore from main campus

with some PARTICULAR reasons they have

luckily i had canceled a room last night

if not......

new year, new hope, new target, new energy

new friends, new things, new experiece

new people, even i wanted to make myself new

waiting for a brand new me.....

sad sad, old old go away........

happiness and new hope come near me :)

HAPPY 2009 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHEER FRIENDS!!! may all your dream come true

one more thing

2008-12-28T19:01:00.000-08:00

i just read say ee's blog
and found out i left out something i want to write hehe
that day we went kek lok si (25/12/08)
i got a draw
overall is a quite good draw i think

on 27/12/08 saturday
i accidentally went to thai temple
and draw at the fortune teller machine
OMG !! unexpected, i got the almost exactly same explaination of the draw i got in kek lok si
hm....seems like the coming year might be the good year for me
hope it will be a good year!!!
i will become 21 soon !!!!

omg....angry

2008-12-28T18:38:00.000-08:00

grrrrr...last night i slept 3am
i tried to upload some pictures to blogger but still cannot
today i woke up at 9 something in the morning
tried to upload also cannot
heng ah!!!

is 3am in the morning (29/12/08)

2008-12-28T10:53:00.000-08:00

rain outside the window
the weather is cold

sometimes i think i am stupid
because of some stupid acts
but for me those acts are what i want
i said it is stupid because ppl will think it is stupid
do i need to care so much about what people think?
or i just need to follow what i like?

is 3 in the morning now
and i am still awake
i am sleepy
but i don't feel like sleeping yet
because i still have a lot to write and a lot to say
tomorrow is a holiday again
sometimes holiday makes me think
think of something that i had done before
think of something that i want to do
think of something that i wish to have
think of something that i already have
do something that i want to do

i guess sometimes i should not think too much
and just do it whatever i want
thinking too much will make things fail sometimes
but not thinking will always give regrets

so, what can i do?

sunday (28/12/08)

2008-12-28T10:48:00.000-08:00

i got nothing to do on this boring sunday
i online in the morning
and i saw him
i was so happy
but i dont know whether i am right
do i hope too much?

i am not very happy now
because of something happened just now
what i want is very simple
why have to make it complicated?

i think you will never know how i feel after i heard what you said
i feel bad
i feel not good
but is ok
let time prove everything
i know time will prove it to all of us

after the rain, i will see the rainbow
let the rain pass follow time
and the rainbow will come next
rain rain go away.........

crazy saturday (27/12/08)

2008-12-28T10:22:00.000-08:00

my friend and i had planned to go to tanjung bungah
we departed from school happily early in the morning
we took bus from school to komtar
at komtar we took a blue bus and went to tanjung bungah
i asked the bus driver to called me when reached tanjung bungah station
lol...at last we reached BATU FERRINGHI..
ok...is ok.......at least our destination is beach
we walked along the road and tried to walk to tanjung bungah
but there is a road which is quite dangerous
so after we took lunch
we take a bus
we planned to go toy museum
we asked the driver again to called us when reached toy museum
FINALLY, we passed the station again and the driver did not ask us to go down
hahahaha...hm...i asked someone in the bus and knew the way to thai temple
yes..finally..we went to thai temple and vietnam temple
is a lousy journey we have
but quite good experience
and i had explored some place
good start for my planning backpacking journey
hehe....i have fun and that is the first time i walked like that to place to place
i felt great !!

P.S : dont know whats wrong with my connection or maybe blogger, i couldn't upload pictures.
i will upload it on the coming post.

Fun Fair (22/12/08)

2008-12-23T18:01:00.000-08:00

i went to fun fair when i was very young

its been long long time i did not go to fun fair

there is a pesta penang on going now

since i had went to sg nibong for the bus ticket on cny

so, waiting, waiting for two hours for the fun fair to open

haha..the fun fair open at 6pm-12pm

i went to get the entrence ticket at 6pm

feeling quite excited because is really long long time i did not go for fun fair

but when i reach inside

my god..nothing one

just some malay stall selling food, dress and etc

erm..but there are exhibitions and we just walk around

luckily till night..finally we saw EURO wheel, space shoot...bla bla bla

feel excited when saw all that

especially saw some stall having those fun fair game like lucky number, shooting..........

haha...want to change for tokens to play

swt....the token so expensive

1 token = rm2

wow..i still remember when i was young my parents brought me to fun fair it was only 1 token = rm1 or even cheaper....

is just some small game..why so so expensive?

finally i only changed for 2 tokens and played a game

hehe..i got two key chains as a reward for throwing the rings....

after that we walked around again

and we went to the mini garden

suprisingly

there is a orang utan inside

hahahahaha....i touched the orang utan

first time ever..the fur so rough but the hand look alike humans'

at around 9pm we took bus and back to our school

i enjoyed it and have fun!!!!!

hehe

P.S : i tried to upload many times the pictures but i couldn't upload. i don't know what happened..i will post the picture later

wow...wow...wow

2008-12-21T06:07:00.000-08:00

finally my room can access to internet
so so so so extremely happy now
haha..i love my hostel now :P
at least when i am boring
it will not be that boring
hehe...
erm...first time can online in room
the feeling is so great
but anyway
have to control myself..
cannot online too much
have to make a timetable for myself
....happy happy happy happy..
happiest day since i stayed in university
cheerrrrrr!!!!!!

did santa ever come?

2008-12-21T02:49:00.000-08:00

since i was young i believe in santa
but..did santa really exist?
i put a socks on the bed every year on 24th dec
till last year i guess i stoped because i realised santa seems did not come
when i was young, i put a socks for a present
when i am teenager, i still put a socks for a present
when i am now, i wanted to put a socks for a wish
did santa ever come to my bed?
will i see him this year?
..i have a wish..
..i might put a socks this year..
..because i hope my wish will come true..
..will this be too stupid?..
..or mayb i will meet Santa someday :) ..

今天

2008-12-19T20:09:00.000-08:00

今天我又要去了

心里有一万个不愿意

但是我没有选择

早上起身心情还好

但，时间越来越近

眼泪不停在眼里打眶眶

但我不会让它流出

因为就算眼泪掉了

我也没有选择

。。。。。。。。。

dream

2008-12-18T18:55:00.000-08:00

i had a dream last night
it was not a very good dream
but it seems sweet
i hope to stay in it forever
it is possible
i hope it is not forever a dream
i hope dream will come true someday

i don't hope
as i walk through the valley of death someday
i take a look at my life
and i realised there is nothing left..

is not that good

2008-12-18T18:51:00.000-08:00

finally i got my first semester result yesterday
the result is just average
erm..is better than i expected
but is bad compared to others
still had a lot of feeling inside that i dont know should i bring it out
i think i shouldn't cos it will affect things
is ok
i used to be a LOSER !!
no matter in what aspect

my gloomy day

2008-12-15T22:29:00.000-08:00

disappear
everything disappear in one day
i couldn't see anything in one day
i couldn't touch it
i scare i lost it
i scare i couldn't see again
because i never know what will happened next
i miss you so much
i wish i could grab you out of your dream
and hug you tight
thinking of you again today
wishing you weren't so far away
hope to meet you soon
MISS YOU so much

i love vampire

2008-12-12T05:44:00.000-08:00

today i went to klcc and watched a very nice movie
i thought i wont meet any friend in klcc
shit!! while i am waiting my friend, i met UKM debators..
and i met yoong xiang also..
so long time did not meet him..suddenly met him today
i met jie jie on the way to the movie
met so many ppl in one day
first time.
hm..the movie is really so so so nice
touching, laughing, romance...
everything inside..
i love this movie so much
it is twilight
aboout human and vampires
if i could meet a vampire like Edward Gullen in the movie someday
i will not care whether is he a vampire.....

complicated

2008-12-06T06:50:00.000-08:00

a complicated feeling suddenly come to me
i failed
i dont know how to manage the problem this time
is a complicated feeling between before and after
why everything cannot maintain by before?
'feelings' are volatile
it changes very fast
sometimes u dont even know it already changed
don't play with feelings
it can cherish u and kill u at the same time

finally

2008-12-05T01:50:00.000-08:00

finally everything end
debate competition also end
i did upload the blog at my japanese blog..
but i wrote it in english there...
can drop there to take a look
i am home now..
today went to very nice date
thanks..
i hope you are my right person..
but....

i want to go home!! i want to have a trip !!!!

2008-11-22T18:20:00.000-08:00

my friend came to penang two days ago, i supposed to be happy right? although my last day of exam is on 21, i still very happy because can enjoy after the exam..but after everything planned well, there are some changes. we suddenly been told that we will be having Royal's dabate training. oh my god!! i lost my holiday. i supposed to have a very nice holiday with my friends..but..the debate trainining just ruined it. yesterday, so many surprises me n say ee got. lol...kumari and kar ee supposed to be coming to usm by the morning but...kumari's hp spoiled and they both standing at same area but did not see each other. weird weird weird!! they have to waste again rm35.10 to buy the new ticket and then come here.. stories continue............suprise not finsih yet....around 4 something in the evening...we got the call from them said that they went down at Butterworth..my god...luckily there is ferry for them to get back here..yea..finally they reached usm...today they left usm...so so so so jealous because they can have time to enjoy..i need to stay in usm till 28th of november..so so so sad..i dont want..everyday do the "wu liao" training..i m not debator, i am just adjuricator...aiks..training for what? as long as i have ears to listen and i have mouth to give comment then everything should be no problem..i still need to train for 5 days....argh argh argh!!! i want to go home i want to go trip. :( so so sad....very very very down.....have to sleep at a strange place somemore..i dont like the feelings..they said that 26th can go back to kl..then yesterday morning told us 27th then yesterday night told us 28th...haiz..what the fuck?? ok fine..after last night meeting...the seniors have a very funny arguement..lol..i dont know...as they like...but they are fighting for a plce of debator...hm..finally solved with fair selection that will be hold on 24th nov...i had a funny and dumpy and unhappy yesterday...!!!!!

what i have did to make seems like eveyrone getting angry with me?

2008-11-12T00:37:00.001-08:00

hey..what i have did to make everyone angry with me?
when i treat something serious, no one believe me.
so what?
dont believe then dont believe la..
dont like that dont like la
why seems like i am the one always need to be blame?
what have i did?
i murdered someone?
is it?
................................................................
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
wanna scream...
writing nonsense...no one will ever understand how i feel..

总有一天我会有报应的

2008-11-12T00:26:00.000-08:00

我总觉得总有一天我会有报应的
我对人的态度
我对爱的态度
应该有一天都会报在我身上吧

i can edit the blog but i cannot change the past

2008-11-11T01:35:00.000-08:00

i can edit the blog that i wrote on the past but i cannot change the reality that has happened in the past..
the only thing that i can do is forget the unhappy thing that has happened and face the future
future is always there waiting for me
and past is for me to remember before i did something wrong
but i never realised my mistake in the past and i still repeating it till now
is it because i never really really get hurt thats why i dont know that i did something wrong?
if i can turn back the time, i will not choose to be the one that i am today...

past...

2008-11-11T01:05:00.000-08:00

Past are irritating

i hate my past

but without past i will not know my present

but i couldnt blame my past

i am the one who wants to be the one i am today

what am i doing now?

do i realize?

i guess i dont realize what i am doing now

and who i am now

i should not be who i am now

but i am who i am now

why i will become like this?

is it myself to blame?

sometimes i feel so so depress

sometimes i feel so so happy

sometimes i feel so so sad

sometimes i feel so so jealous

sometimes i feel so so stress

sometimes i feel so so excited

sometimes i feel so so lovely

sometimes i feel so so enthusiasm

sometimes i feel so so great

sometimes i feel so so..................

who am i?

can someone tell me pls?

hahaha..HBT 100

2008-11-07T06:34:00.001-08:00

lol..first time i translate poem in my entire life..thanks to the course for giving me the chance to translate a poem..thanks for my mom and dad for borne me out so that i can take this paper...hahaa...i think i getting crazy lately..hm hm hm...haha...yea..exam time should be crazy...today paper is not as hard as i think because i still can understand the question just i dont know the answer..everything i studied in the study week..yea..came out one question..better than nothing right..the books i studied in study week can be equal to the amount of books i study in whole 20 years..lol....yea..i dont like to read books...except those book that needed..so give a big clap to me..cos i read a lot and yea..first time in my life i translated a poem..and it is like shit..

sad and bad day

2008-11-06T01:53:00.000-08:00

i have a very very bad day..
hate today...
feel like wanna die...
should i crash my head on the wall?

finally.....!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-04T05:40:00.000-08:00

finally my exam started....my god..first paper today..i dont know what i am doing while the exam...i was scared but finally the first paper gone...and the coming paper is on 7th november....so so tired today although did not do anything..hm hm hm...still have so so many days to go...till 21st i still cannot free cos still have debate practice..helppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!

feelings 1/11/2008 (Saturday)

2008-11-01T22:42:00.002-07:00

Don’t know what to write actually. Hm….just suddenly not really in a very good mood. Yea..this is called mood. My friend told me yesterday mood came without reason, emotion came with reasons. But actually I know what is the reason. I don’t know why I will have such feeling. I know I will live in suffer if I have such feelings. Hm…just that I can’t control. Every time I heard that I don’t know why I will feel unhappy. Maybe I am feeling jealous to you. Yes, you always become the attention of everyone. When I walk with you I feel that I am so little and people will only look at you because you were so tall. When I walk with you, I lost my self-confidence. Yea we are very good friend and everyone sees us as very good friend. I admit that. But I know this is just my own problem. I think I have to change my mind set. These few days, all day study study study..i never become so hardworking before this. I am still scare. I feel myself inside were empty. Not even a single word in my mind. I scare I will lose. Exam coming soon..two more days to go…I have not time to waste. But I feel very bad because yea, I don’t like study. I wish to go back kl as soon as possible. I wish 21st come faster. I wish I could do my best and strive for the best. But..i think except study, praying will be a very important part too. I will pray in my heart every night. Exam is stressful……..i scare exam..i love exam..i hate exam….

ps: i thought of wanna edit a bit, but never mind la..let the si 8 po know la

沉重的心情

2008-11-01T22:31:00.001-07:00

考试快到了
心情越来越沉重
压力越来越大
昨天心情超级差的
但是又不懂可以告诉谁
我想一个人的感觉会比较好吧
昨晚写了一篇日记很想上网把它寄了
但是。。。却。。
要死了！！！！！！

i dont want study

2008-10-28T23:11:00.000-07:00

help me....
i dont want study already
i wanna go back to kl......
desperately wanna go back kl and dont want study..
but i got no choice......
need to stay.....
stay till 26 nov...
god god god....
hate this..hate this
hate translation...
hate translator..

empty day again ?????

2008-10-27T07:18:00.000-07:00

i tried my best to study study and study....but...it seems like not really well. processing..i start study at about 11 something in the morning..end up at about 2 something..my god.. then find ppl chat..even called my mom...i was so so so boring just keep on studying bout the same thing..i really want to say that i love biology..i love biology very much..i want to study biology...at least there is something diff..now the thing i am studying..not to say everything same..i need to remember everything but is actually a same thing from many ppl talking in diff ways..my god my god my god..is a quite empty day again for me..i going to die on the exam week....hm hm hm...my mind keep thinking about going back to kl....what should i do? my heart wanted to do very well in the exam and i am nervous cos fo the exam but...hm hm..just dont have the dedication to study well....tell me...what should i do and what can i do? struggling............ hope asali is with me now..... asali, love u so much...

i am so so amazing

2008-10-26T02:35:00.000-07:00

how can i be so amazing......today should be study more than yesterday but...wow...after two pages then fall in sleep..then try to study again...fall in sleep again..so amazing right? hm....and yea...finally i got nothing today..haha...but when i chatting with ppl in msn..i was awake and energetic...haha..never fall in sleep while chatting even it is late night...so amazing right? why have to study? is so so so so tiring and boring..why not do some interactive things to evaluate on us instead of having exam? ........................speechless....become crazier day by day....hope will become better soon..... today i become topoli for someone.....haha..... so cute...topoli.... :P haha....hope everything will be end soon..and i can go back kl enjoy enjoy enjoy......

my home sweet home

2008-10-25T08:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday i left my home sweet home to my friend's room because study week coming. yea..today is the first day of the study week..hm hm..whole day is online, chatting, grammar, sleep and eat.. thats all i did for today. and yes today i finally know who i am in someone heart now....hahhahahaha... askim, bene seni cok seviorum, tesekur. i am scare for the final exam but i dont know what i can do..i tried to do some grammar exercieses..is quite boring but have to do it also..my course is quite weird..my friend busying studying lot of books..but i just doing some grammar exercises online and yes..i dont know to read..this make me more scare....hm hm...i dont know where to start..i am always a science class student..and you know..science class plus is bio class..sure lot of things to study and to remember..but now i dont have book....my god..how? i not used to it actually...feeling dont know how...just like wasting time online-ing although i did do some grammar exercises..the level of my english course now is diff than those when i was in secondary or even muet...is much much more specific and harder...haiz..i cant imagine my result..................................

i am crazy

2008-10-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

yes..i think i am getting crazy..think nonsense everyday...dont know what i am thinking...hm hm...everyday just fool around like a fool..today i got very bad result in the quiz that i did last two weeks..my god...i dont know how to face the final that will be coming on the end of the year..i am so scare about that...everytime i get quite bad result in quiz..i feel very stress...and sometime i really dont know what i am thinking....i hope to get something but i just cant get it...hm hm hm..mayb sometimes ''can meet but cannot force'' that is what a phrase in chinese said...hm hm...haiz..my heart feel quite jealous bout something but is stupid if i tell it out...haha..so just let it pass..i believe in better in time..

todayssssssss

2008-10-11T02:26:00.000-07:00

is a tough day for me...finally i know the answer..is not the answer i want but at least i feel realease..is a bit sad but i believe that i will get better in time..because everything get better in time...so tomorrow will be another new day for me..i will start my whole new life tomorrow..hope it is a great day for me..yea..i know it will be a busy day for me

evaluation on my classmates' blogs

2008-10-09T20:11:00.000-07:00

as i said earlier i have another japanese blog. now i am in japanese class and today's lesson is evaluate on others's blog. is quite a difficult job for me because all of them are my friend. so i did not gave too low mark. the lowest marks i gave is 7.5 out of 10. today is not a very happy day for me. i dont know why my mood will be affected by you. maybe better in time by leaona lewis now is suitable for me. actually i dont know whether what are u thinking but i just do my best to get in contact with u. sometimes i feel lost when i did not get to contact u. i hope the feeling will lost very soon and i will get to know what are u thinking.

Better in time by Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realise that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remaind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the path

I believe in And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is

I'll be fine without you

Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

everyday is a happy day since monday

2008-10-09T01:53:00.000-07:00

i have a very happy monday. is the happiest day since i came to penang. i done well in my presentation. i was so happy about that. and another happy thing is..yes..finally i got it..thanks to my grandmother for everything. because that day i went to her grave and tell her to help me in two things. and she really did. i feel so thankful to her. but one thing very sad is i did not go back when she pass away. i feel very guilty about that. and i also feel something more guilty. during chinese new year 2008, i went back to my grandmother house as usual. but the different is i dont know why when i when i reached there i just keep crying and dont feel like staying there. i cry a lot. and my mom scold me and said, sure something bad will happened this year. where got ppl cry like this in chinese new year. i really did not think of my grandmother will pass away so fast. yea she is old and she was sick but she getting healthy. i really did not think of she will pass away in this year. my mom was so sad. and i feel so guilty. because it seems my fault since i was crying during the chinese new year. is not a good sign for chinese ppl, should not be crying in chinese new year.......thanks my grandmother that help me realise my dream, not the whole of my dream but still thanks because already realised half of it. hope she rest in peace in heaven.